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Changing meds

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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Sitting with you @WIP xx

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Already taken double the amount of prn @Former-Member

Ive developed such a high tolerance.

My pdoc is going to want to admit me for a quick detox - I'm petrified of that..:::::particularly when I have really bad days like today, where I'm in crisis all day.

i just don't know what to do? My head is spinning &'I just wish I could calm down a bit

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I'm the same with prn @WIP Have been taking them on and off for many years. Rarely take them now. Only in emergencies, because gp's don't like prescribing them. Yet, there's nothing much else that I can tolerate.
Would you go public or private for detox @WIP

I understand your fears. Wish I could help. 🥰

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It may be a lame suggestion @WIP

Does music whilst cuddles with Levi help? 🙏☹️💞

@Former-Member @Emelia8 ❣️

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It's my pdocs fault I have developed such a high tolerance - he kept prescribing them during lockdown, because I was so bad. Then when he tried my on a new AD and it was a horrible experience, where I didn't sleep for over a week, he told me to take more of the anti anxiety meds!! No whenever I see him,'all he talks about is reducing the anti anxieties. I'd go private for that @Former-Member But I don't have my emotions under control - crying outbursts, so what do I?

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It's not a lame suggestion - I've tried that.

im just a blubbering mess, not able to concentrate

Thanka tho @Anastasia

I need to lay in bed in the dark and try some mindfulness - I may just fall

asleep - got enough meds

in me!!

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Have you been private before @WIP

Were they understanding? I'd like to think they'd support you there. Do you think it might be a good idea to try soon. I know it must be hell what you're going through. I'm guessing you have private cover?? I wish I had private cover last year. I would have admitted myself. But, like you, I don't want to go public.
Crying is ok, WIP. Try to deep breathe

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Could you cuddle up with little Levi on the couch @WIP and watch The Sound of Music on tele with me? Its part way through, and Ive seen it numerous times, but I enjoy it each time. Its on the main Channel 7.

@Anastasia @Former-Member @Eve7

Emelia 💞

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@WIP wrote:

It's not a lame suggestion - I've tried that.

im just a blubbering mess, not able to concentrate

Thanka tho @Anastasia

I need to lay in bed in the dark and try some mindfulness - I may just fall

asleep - got enough meds

in me!!


I think this sounds like a good idea hun, do you? 🙏🤗❣️

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Thanks for last night @Emelia8 @Former-Member @Eve7 @Anastasia @Jynx @Shaz51 I'm very lucky to have the kindness of you all.

Got some very broken sleep with bad dreams.
Haven't woken too good.

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