I am struggling at the moment

@Decadian Thank you so much. I guess that's the beauty about the forum in that we all definitely learn from each other in real time. And then get to support each other mostly in real time too. I'm really pleased to hear you are feeling like you are sorting some things though therapy. I wish you well for Monday and hope you find the way forward in coming to terms with your ailing uncle. 💜😊🤗💐🤗🤗🤗🤗

@Former-Member Thanks. The funny thing I always see everyone on hear doing it so much better than me with more difficulties than me. I really often feel like the weak link on here. I also want to thank you for using the words 'space cadetish' which cracked me up as I use that saying a lot. I really hope the space cadet leaves soon but if you're like me it's a bit of a label that sticks 😝😊😂💜🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗

really feeling huggy today🤗

Thanks @Former-Member

Working in therapy is work - and only the bravest people take it on.

And yes- it is beautiful how people help each other here

Decadian

Hi @Former-Member

So sorry to hear you were feeling so distressed last night

How are you tonight- did you get a phone call today?

Hi @utopia,

im sorry I missed your last post here. I've been a bit lazy relying on emails and occasionally checking last posts. Perhaps your putting the same pressure on yourself for your friend that we both have over the last few weeks with the CG stuff. It's the same but different if you get what I mean. I would be anxious and petrified of saying the wrong thing too. At the end though all you can be is your same beautiful self. If you say the wrong thing I'm sure you'll find a way to say the right thing shortly after. You always find a genuine way of connecting and supporting. I saw an apology you wrote today which was whole hearted, that's all anyone can ask for. You need to trust yourself because you have so much to offer. Just being present with him and listening will mean the world to him I'm sure. I hope this helps. Sending you reassuring hugs 🤗🤗🤗💜😊

Hi @Former-Member. How was your day? I've thought of you today.

The psychiatrist was sick today so my therapist couldn't speak to him but we decided I needed to stay on my medications. She helped out a bit but mostly I was just miraculously a bit better today. I've had a day of just trying to pull my life together a bit. I start at TAFE at 9:00am tomorrow and I guess I've been focussed on that. I talked to my phams worker too and sorted a few things out with her.

As from Monday I'll have a set activity everyday so I think that will help. I think I feel a bit relieved to stay on my medication for now. It seems like the wrong time to change. He wanted me to be on a more sedating medication and I was scared of being too flattened by that. I guess only time will tell. At the end of the term I'll be at a loss with very few weekly commitments and then I can change medication if needed.

Was it today you saw your specialist. How did it go?

Good to hear from you @Former-Member . I had been thinking of you too today..

For some reason last night I thought you would feel better today. I am glad your therapist was able to give you some support today and was there for you yesterday too. How long will tafe go tomorrow, and I hope you do well this term.

I think you should do what you feel comfortable doing, and I guess you still feel you haven't gelled with him. I can't give any advice around the medication.

I think its good that you set yourself something everyday I have tried to do some of the things I did at hospital at home. Each day we did a beach walk and I try to do my walk every day at the same time just like I did in hospital.

I did see my specialist today, she has been my Dr since 1998, so I have know her quite a long time. I didn't feel I got a lot out of the session today. I am just feeling a bit lost tonight and a bit disheartened from seeing her today.

I'm not sure what I am up to tomorrow but I mite go into Brisbane on the train and just out for the day.

ESorry just had a shower and washed my hair @Former-Member. I'm trying to be organised. I have really long thick hair that usually takes a couple of hours to dry so washing it always has to be well planned which is not my forte.

Im sorry you feel a bit disillusioned from your appointment today. I hate that feeling when you set yourself up to sort some things out and you come out feeling like nothing's changed or sorted. I think I have a few sessions like that. Perhaps doing something nice tomorrow will be a good thing. I like the way you kept routines from hospital. That's a good idea and takes lots of self discipline- good for you 💜😊.

I only have two more visits with the psychiatrist and then he moves on and I get the next registrar. I think I'm coming to accept that I just need to rely on my therapist for now. TAFE is only for 3 hours in the morning. It's been a long time since I've had to concentrate for that long. It's a bit scary. I think it will be ok though.

Take care of you tonight. Try not to let you appointment today worry you, it happens. You are doing well. I hope you sleep well. I have to go to bed soon as I have to be there by 9:00am which is very scary. Catch you tomorrow, sending comforting hugs🤗🤗🤗 💜😊🤗