I am struggling at the moment

Thanks @Faith-and-Hope. To tell the truth I'm not really sure. I think my therapist and mental health team have a different take on it but I don't want to write it here as it could be triggering. I've asked to do DBT but I don't know what the chances of that are. My therapist thinks it would compliment what we are doing. If I was accepted it is months away as I'd be on a wait list. I don't think it's going to get any better until I learn and put into practice how to manage it better which I'm struggling to do. Me thinks this is the nature of the BPD stuff and to be honest it's scaring the crap out of me right now.

@Former-Member I am hoping to make it tomorrow to TAFE. I know it's a catch 22 but hopefully it's a gamble that pays off. I know your having a really rocky patch too. I'm so sorry I haven't been there much for you lately. I know you are working really hard to learn and understand yourself too. I think once you have some conformation and some strategies to help you'll go forward in leaps and bounds (ok with an occasional step backwards because everyone does) but you'll find more peace with in yourself. In the meantime be kind to you. Thinking of you

hugs to both of you 🤗🤗🤗. Think I'm feeling a bit huggy today. 🤔

Thanks for the hugs @Krystal 💜 Do you go through these cycles too? It gets so distressing at times. How is your day going?

sending lots of hugs back if you want them too🤗🤗🤗🤗💜😊

Thanks @utopia. The TAFE thing was a spur of the moment thing. I thought about it and bought it up with my therapist on Monday. We kind of decided it was a bad idea then as I was sorting my son's passport, TAFE was across the road. Of course I went in and asked for this terms program and checked if I was still eligible to do it for free which I was. Messaged my therapist with new plan which she agreed was a good plan. Just got off the phone with my phams worker and she can move me to fridays. I now have to be out of the house 5 days a week even if only for an hour. I'm hoping it helps.

Thanks for the support. I am struggling with the fact I'm on here in crisis so much of the time but the irony is the support I get here is just as important and valuable as the support I get anywhere else. I hope one day I'll have more control over it all. I am trying to find a place with the CG too but I guess the best way to describe it at the moment is hit and miss.

I hope your day has been a good one. Take care @utopia💜😊🤗💐

Hi @Former-Member

I wish you all the best with the TAFE course - and about the messages here - you are most welcome - we are here for each other all the time - there is always someone about and when we can't help - there are other people who can

Yesterday I was talking with my new psychologist about my son - (and only my son) and mentioned that I thought he might have had BPD - and indeed she agreed that it sounded very much as if he did - so frustrated at times that 30+ years ago I was given so little info about whatever it was that took over his life at times

Your comments have been so helpful - allowing me to see the inside of what drove him - for he was a most unhappy person - and for the first time yesterday I felt I could see him better - so much of his life is a mystery to me

So what I am trying to say is - while you are in the middle of a crisis - you are helping me - and I feel it's important for you to know that

Decadian