I am struggling at the moment

@Teej

Thank you all. I'm feeling very lost .... and sufficiently groggy to be found. Eternally yours, the drama queen. 💜🤗

Hey @Teej ..... always, always good to see you ❣️

Drama queen is allowed, in my book ..... probably cos I am one too ...... entitled to our feelings and how we feel about our feelings .....

Be kind to you 💜💕

Remember this one @Teej ^^^^ ? You posted it ages ago, and I kept it ..... it's the most gorgeous reminder to take baby-steps there is ..... ❣️

💜🌹 @Teej ....

@Teej

Thanks @Faith-and-Hope , @Snowie @CheerBear , @Maggie , @Sans911 , @CheerBear @Appleblossom @outlander

I want to write this before I have another Centrlink assessment in a few hours.

im sorry that I dragged you all into my drama. I'm also incredibly grateful. Although a really heavy post in a desperate state the other night I'm glad I got it in words, not so glad for those who read them. I read that post to my therapist yesterday and cried.
I also saw my psychiatrist the day after and she saw fir the first time the back end result of me falling apart. I don't think she was aware of what it looked like. I guess in hindsight that is because I haven't been in such a dark hole and acted on it in that way for a long time. I know she was surprised and she was trying to work out what went wrong. I think it was a breaking point for me.
I'm so hoping today that I get the support I so desperately need from centrelink today in the form of further exemption. I need to breathe again and start to live again because I've spent so much time trying to survive lately and I feel wrecked.
I feel like I'm at the beginning of putting pieces together but know that is going to be very messy still. I still have lots of dark and twisty stuff that many of of us have.
Writing this now I know that after my centrelink appointment I may have a huge emotional response but I wanted to let you know how grateful I was for your support. 💜🤗

No need to be sorry @Teej

I am glad that you felt comfortable enough here to post. Shows an enormous amount of courage.

I hope your centrelink appointment goes ok.

Lots of love and hugs

Snowie xoxo

I echo what @Snowie said @Teej . 💜💜💜💜😘😘

From me too @Teej ^^^

I know you struggle with having vented the way you did, but I feel proud of you for reaching out and expressing yourself ..... perhaps it's worth working on that happening with less self-incrimination and guit-inducing co-existing not-good-for-your-health stuff, which can be worked on with strategies and alternate pathways ?

Love and hugs, and I hope it goes well.

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