I am struggling at the moment

Oh @Sans911 thank you. I can see you are feeling crappy too. Perhaps we can feel crappy together.😢🥺

@Teej Hi there Teej. Please be careful with the self medication this evening. We all want you to be to make lots of sense on the foum (and elsewhere.)

regards

Whitehawk

My situation is having a sone really weird moments @Teej .... but considering how weird things have been pre-split, it shouldn't have been a surprise. It's just a different brand of roller coaster methinks ..... at least for now.

I am so sorry that certificate was rejected, and the feelings around that have snowballed ..... but hopefully reconnecting eye for this little bit will give you strength to do a bit of a push-back against substances, and pick up again. Try to consider it from the "one step back " perspective, and find two steps forward to take to leave that step-back behind you......

Higs @Teej ..... here and listening 💖💕 ..... and caring about how you feel.

You made plenty sense. @Teej

Glad I posted something worthwhile.

Will look at iview.

Girls Feeling Crappy together with HANKIES. We gotta keep all tissues and toot paper we can. It the 3rd time I have tried to get some. Not fretting. Just Saying.

Hugs Bella

@Faith-and-Hope I haven't abandoned the substances, had more but needed Dutch courage. I will regret writing this but feel like such a fraud that I need it out....or exorcised maybe.
I am struggling with coming to terms with so so much. I hid and avoided showing people the real me for so long. I didn't know or understand any of it. Now I can't hide any of it. No more maske just a useless middle aged woman who is hopeless and slow at everything she does. Somehow she articulates things to make her seem more functional than she is. She doesn't want sympathy or empathy because she doesn't deserve it. She wants to be unconscious and not be part of this worl that sh3 will always be the slow useless one that people clean up after. She is much more self centred than people think. She has no spine or guts or determination. She has no internal locus of control. She wonders why people are so kind to her. She knows she's not threatening to others but doesn't often deserve the kindness. She is really really scared of going through more days like this. Her children have started disrespecting her more and tell her to get a job like a normal person. Her children are often disappointed with her lack of accomplishments during any given day. She doesn't want to go on but doesn't want her kids to suffer either. The humiliation of her children starting to question her is really heartbreaking at the moment. The need to be unconscious grows stronger. Her diagnosis is pitiful. How can someone be s dysfunctional with adhd. How can someone come onto a complex mh forum with that diagnosis. She is a fraud. She needs to be punished. She is a wreck.

💜💜💜 @Teej ..... I am glad you were able to voice all of the insecurities and misgivings you are feeling at the moment, no doubt heightened by Dutch courage as much as the circumstances driving the need for it ..... and I hear you. You are entitled to feel the way you do, but please consider that it's possible to feel differently ..... as so recently you did in respite .... and allow a little for that wheel, the cycle, to come back around some more, to an accaotance of a more balanced view of yourself .... ?❣️

It's not fraudulent to have masks, and different days / stages / opportunities that allow different ones to show for different reasons. We all do that for different purposes, and there is no one-size-fits-all ......

You are precious to many of us here for a reason @Teej .... a reason you are hard-presses to see in this moment, but it's there.

Please rest, and when the worst of the storm has blown over, consider how to reset your sails.

Hugs n hugs n hugs n hugs Hon 🌹🙏💋💪💐

@Teej My heart aches with you. I know words matter very little in a storm, the wind blows them away. But we are all right in the centre of it with you, no one is going, or wants to be , anywhere else. Thankyou for being you. 💜💜💜💜💜💜😘😘

Repeating @CheerBear's sentiments here too @Teej ..... feeling more human (🤞) or not, wanting to hear back from you if you feel you can.

💜🌷💕🌱