I am struggling at the moment

This whole process sucks @Faith-and-Hope . I'm completely undone again 🥺🤯

I've got an arse to deal with here, and I need you around with that pitchfork of yours ..... he took his w***h through my home in the west .... after being told he's not allowed in my living spaces .... wtf ???!!! Pitchfork ready ......

The kids need you @Teej ..... you should hear what mine are saying about money right now ..... while their dad is spending it like water, and playing keepy-offs with me 🤬

Stitch it together in whatever way you can @Teej ..... the most sucky moments pass with time and universe changes ...., we're here to help you tread water.

It's not the first time I've thought about resurrecting the Pitch fork for you. @Faith-and-Hope Why do they have to be arses. Don't you dare settle on anything to make it easier. I didn't go for superannuation I was entitled to because it didn't feel right. I wish I had now.

it's been a long time since I've used these coping strategies. It's been building all week. Just too much piled on and not seeing a light at the end and feeling hopeless for a stack of reasons.

Hearing you @Teej. I reckon I am going to have some "the-tunnel-never-ends" days, cos this looks set to be really messy, and if he is NPD, I can't expect anything better from him.

Rebuilding takes little steps @Teej, which just sucks when you're feeling all-out, but your head knows it's a roller coaster Hon, even if your emotions are going totally haywire, which they do, cos you care.

My emotions go totally haywire cos I care, and if my counsellor hadn't ironed me for this, by giving me advanced warning and stuff to read up on, I reckon I would be a blubbering mess by now, instead of an angry warrior woman reaching for tar and feathers, and calling on friends with pitchforks.

@Faith-and-Hope @My eyes are struggling to stay awake now, thank goodness because urges were strong and I was just about to re load. I'm going to say goodnight.
been thinking about you heaps with your stuff. It is going to be hard knowing a bit about his personality.

His personality is on display @Teej .... confusing and sickening every decent person we know ..... the shocker was the "discard". I've read that nobody expects the dropping if the mask, no matter how :pile_of_poo: things have been to that point .... and to find that it has been a long-term deception, invasive and totally manipulative .... well at least it's slammed the door shut. W***h is welcome to him, but first there are things to sort out, as you know, and the kids are, of course, in the firing line ..... because he's an arse.

Hugs @Teej .... you're one of the many here who give me courage to take the next steps, by being you ..... so take care of you Hon .... you are very special to me ❣️

@Teej 💙💙💙