I am struggling at the moment

Just dropping in to say thank you to everyone for your support. I’ve surfaced out the other side for now. Had some touch and go moments with my eldest but he has probably helped more than hinder......more like push in a way I could cope with....just. He took the helm with something and in the end I’m not angry with him. I’d been hanging on to all the thoughts around it too long. His mission this weekend was to see me in my bed and out of my chaos. So....

Before

During

And I won’t show after but I slept on a bed in my house for the first time in nearly two years. It feels ok. I thought I’d possibly not cope with it all but I am doing ok.

Im going to tag a few long suffering people in this post @Faith-and-Hope, @Former-Member, @Kurra, @Shaz51 @Appleblossom, @NikNik, @Former-Member. It’s been a long saga. Feeling like I’m the only one who could create so much drama out of sleeping in my new bed.

And thanks to @CheerBear, @outlander, @Former-Member, @eth who haven’t had to suffer from me for quite so long but have given generous and kind support.

Hugs and these for all

Im doing ok for now, there is still lots of road blocks to come but for now I’m not focussing on dying but living moment to moment. As always I learned things about myself this time. I got close again but am here fighting again. Hoping everyone is doing ok. I’ve not seen much of the forum at all over Easter.

💜🤗

@Teej

Glad you have your new bed set up @Teej It was a long wait.

It might help with many things, sleep and then more self esteem.

I wont get too excited cos you gotta calm down.

Love from me too @Teej. The reason I don't see what's going on a lot of the time is that I have my settings set to only notify me if I get tagged, plus a daily digest which usually only shows a couple of threads. So I 'm happy to support you but don't see a lot of your posts. I've got it set this way as I got spread too thin on lots of threads a while ago and started mixing up who was who.

Thanks @Appleblossom, @CheerBear, @outlander, @Faith-and-Hope @eth

@eth My bed saga was kind of going on while you were on your big break from the forum. I felt a bit funny about where to put your name since you were one of the first people on the forum I connected with. I had a glimpse at your ndis thread the other day to know that you are still very much in the thick of it with lots of emotional stirrings as well. I’ve been thinking of you too. I also feel very honoured that you’ve been able to post support here with all that is going on for you.

Lol @Kurra. When I was on the mattress on the floor I had to get up from my bed. Now I have to climb down from bed. The mattress I was given is huge which probably explains why I was ok on the floor all this time. I feel a bit like the princess and the pea and once I start shrinking may need steps to climb into bed 😜.

Have you still got dog? It warmed my heart when I read you were on your way and I wondered about dog. Been thinking about you heaps too as always 💜🤗

@Teej Hopefully you are getting good sleep on the new bed. And that today is one of the better ones for you.