I am struggling at the moment

Good Morning @Teej 🙂

I can reassure you that we have looked into things around this from our end, I'm sorry that's really all I can say. What I do hope is that you can find a little comfort in my words. I hear this is hard for you. What might be something you can put into place? What's emerging in yoru day today?

Run away run away faster.

I'm sorry to hear that @Teej. I hear how this isn't the way you want to be. Try not to be harsh on yourself. Applying things when you can as you can. Be gentle. Compassion is so much more validating and strengthening than self criticism. You can do this @Teej I believe in you, there are so many of us here that do 🙂

Can you name one self care practise you can put into place now?

Sorry @Former-Member I’ve just flipped out. It’s ok. I’m not your circus or your monkeys. Pretty much my own circus. I shall run away now. It’s ok.

I’m so sorry @Former-Member, @Faith-and-Hope. 😔

Im struggling with lots of things at the moment @Faith-and-Hope hit the biggest nail though. My dreams and real life are morphing into one big mash that I don’t know what’s real. They all have the same theme, that I’m letting someone down hugely, that I’ve made too many mistakes that hurt people, that I can be relied on for anything. I wake up everyday trying to work out what is real. I have so many random thoughts about packing up all my gear and getting things sorted for when I leave. Every night I think of suicide and it’s owning me. I don’t want sympathy. I know it’s all self inflicted. I’m just confused and very messy creating a wild ride of emotions over everything. I’m so scared for the coming weeks. I’m running away from everything 😒.

@Former-Member I’m so sorry for my other posts. I was right on the edge. I hope you know that I meant that I didn’t want to be your problem and that running away was safer for everyone. I’m a little calmer now. I think it helped that @Faith-and-Hope recognised that there are lots of layers just now. I’m going to try to get to group, I’ll be more than 30 mins late but if I’d left earlier there’s a fair chance I would have wrapped my car around a pole 😩. Thank you both for trying to help. Sorry I was out of control. 💜🤗

😢 I didn’t make it out the house @Faith-and-Hope. I’m too far gone, can’t concentrate on anything. Will try to pull myself together this afternoon. I have a great big fat L on my forehead at the moment. 😔😩

Thank you for the update @Teej, you are in my thoughts 🙂

I took your posts earlier as I need some time out. Glad you are finding some ways to help manage what your are going through right now. Great to see you are feeling comforted by @Faith-and-Hope's words.

Easy does it @Teej, hope this speaks to you as much I hope.