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I don't know why I am really writing this. There seems to be part of me which says that I need to pull my head in and do this alone and another part who so desperately wants to reach out for help. I am really struggling. I'm not coping at all. For much of the day I've thought about all the reasons to die and there are hundreds. There is also one reason to live that keeps me here. I can't let down my oldest son and cut out his trip of a lifetime. He would have to come home and pick up all the pieces for everyone. I keep telling myself I have to hold on until he comes back and then I can let go but this keeps me waiting to die not choosing to live. I have a cold sore that now goes from the corner of my eye the length of my nose and it's slowly creeping across my face from stress. It started on Wednesday and each morning I wake to find more of my face engulfed by it. I am so tired. I am so sorry to write this and I know I'm so lucky to have friends on here that care. I don't want anyone to have to deal with this as it is so depressing so I started this thread as a way of saying that I'm not well when writing here and please don't feel obliged to read or respond.
I'm meant to be at my friend's sons 21st. It started 30min ago. Im so dumb. It's going to be really hard to be there. It's the family part at a hotel. I also need to get him a gift on the way.
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
Re: I am struggling at the moment
So go do it @Former-Member .... arriving late will help because it will shorten the time you are there .... and only stay as long as you are comfortable to .....
Although it is stressing you, it is also spending positive, productive energy ...,, don't be afraid of the ting and yang of it .... you're learning to rebalance life energy, no matter what we choose to call it ..,
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Unknown userMember
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Thank you. Ok you got me to cry just a little bit so bonus points buts it did get a few tears rolling down my face. 😘 I'm dressed ready to go. :pile_of_poo: scared but ready. Wish me luck. 💜🤗😘
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
Re: I am struggling at the moment
Good luck .... 💜🤗
✅🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀💚❣
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KurraSenior Contributor
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Have a fun time @Former-Member💕🎶
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PepsimaxSenior Contributor
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@Former-Member hi stay with us know it's hard at the moment hang in there I'm here for you tonight if you need to talk I have been thinking of you even though I don't post sometimes I have been doing better this weekend get paid tomorrow HURRAY have spent too much in January none left over be more mindful this time @Faith-and-Hope thanks for helping Teej
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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Hi @Pepsimax .... 😊💕
Thanks for the check-in. It's good to see you .... yay to being paid .... ❣
Love chatting with @Former-Member .... 💜
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PepsimaxSenior Contributor
Re: I am struggling at the moment
@Faith-and-Hope teej seems to have a tough time most of the time not always there for her
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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She has her good days too @Pepsimax .... and they will gradually increase and the tough days decrease .... it's a long road, but she's getting there ....
Just keep walking with her too, and emphasise the successes. Success builds success, so that's what we all need to focus on .... it helps to create a wall against negative thought and protect our progress.
💜💕
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PepsimaxSenior Contributor
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@Faith-and-Hope your right I will stay with her and you how are you today make it all about Teej I think about everyone here I need to come on every to see what what's going on
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