I am struggling at the moment

Nite you

@Appleblossom I could do with your help. How did you fight the thoughts?

What do people do when they are at total breakdown point and need respite from their home and circumstances?

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@Teej wrote:

What do people do when they are at total breakdown point and need respite from their home and circumstances?

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an emergency shelter maybe?

a friend used to get committed (not voluntary)by her sister when things totally off rails. she's dead now, poor bugger.

Hey @Former-Member

You know your days out in the car ? I do different versions of that ... just spend the day out of home.

I used to have to take D2 with me, cos there was nobody to leave her with. Used to pack up some activities for her, a lunch, and go hang out somewhere ....

One day, with enough petrol money, I drove two hours to another town .... had lunch there, then drove back to pick up the kids from school. They had no idea, and neither did WH.

Libraries are free, and have music with headphones sometimes. Lots of quiet corners, books, magazines.

There's food courts in shopping centres, especially when it's not lunch time ... mid afternoon is often quiet.

Then there's parks and playgrounds if it's not too cold and wet, but it sounds like it is over your way at the moment.

And a favourite was / is to pack up the iron and a basket of ironing, and go to my girlfriend's house for all-day coffee .... whether we got any ironing done or not ....

❤️

Have you looked up emergency respite services ?

I dunno heaps of different ways .. it will also be what is particular to your psyche, triggers and reasons

Fighting is part of the problem @Former-Member

it actually lays down or intensifies the neural pathway or something ... so it gets stronger.

The best approach for me was to gruding ly accept them ... not deny or fight ... or their you are teasing me again

but sometime I am just P**d like tonight in the city I was fuming ... (choir story doesnt matter to this)

I was almost daring the cars.. talk about PEDESTRIAN rage ... dont mess with me when I am in a stink

outside of the cathedral ... one car ... was going to move and i looked at him like do you thnk I bloody care .. just try and run me over ..

I also drove in peak hour traffic for an hour ... so I must have been hyper switched on

SI

is related to life force and anger ... anger to keep us safe not to turn against us .. we cant deny our anger ... gardening digging .. running walking ... playing fiery spanish music on the piano

anger is intense ... its got to be a mix of ways ... first I promised not to SH in my new home with my boy ...

I succeeded in that. Its been 15 years ... I still struggle with SI ... but I kind of think I am over the hump.

Cos I dont really think I want to suicide anymore ... but its remnants and old thought patterns that haunt me... so I am not as scared as I used to be.

Dunno if that helps .. its just straight off the top of my head.

YOU need to take up an interest ... you havent mentioned anything you do ... you have to do more of the stuff that is good for you ... it might take a while to actually FEEL better ... it took a few years for me ... but that way you create new thought patterns ... new habits .. and may even find some fun in life.

Please take care @Former-Member

Thank you @Appleblossom, @Faith-and-Hope. I'm still here but probably won't be able to post for a while. I'm seriously messed up and may head to hospital soon. I've been trying so hard not to but I'm not sure I can get through on my own. Much of me fighting this hard to stay here is because of you both and others on the forum. 💜😊