I am struggling at the moment

I do understand @Former-Member ... don't woryy, it does make sense ..... just posing the thought of transferring it to somewhere else, and it will be part of your healing journey when you're ready to relocate it ....

Another part of the journey will be exchanges .... can you see how you have invested a sense of control in an inanimate object ? You can do the same with positive things .... place "touchstones" in your life .... something special that represents the love of your friend .... perhaps a selfie with her on your fridge ....

Place a plant with purple flowers somewhere special and physically go and touch it, water it, tend it when you're feeling a bit lost ....

You're creative, you will think of other things as you put your mind to this.

What do you have attached to your keys ? Something very Teej ? They are things, but they can carry emotive content for you ....

I hear that it's really hard @Former-Member and right now you don't want to let go of it because it's the only thing you really know and if you put it down what will you do?

At least I think that's what you are saying - that at least where you are and what you have if okay for now - not fun - not pleasant - not helpful - but it's something you know

We are here and we understand - it must be confusing - certainly

Thinking of you

Dec

Need to vent. I think I need a thread called FEELING F*****D OFF. That feels highly inappropriate so I'm back here on this thread with my tail between my legs and feeling overwhelmed and angry. Just had the last visit with my psychiatrist before he moves on and I get a new one. Why can't they hear anything I say. What do they all have their opinions of me without knowing me at all. Why do they all contradict each other. Why do they trigger me so much in wanting to do bad stuff. What do they make my life so much harder than it should be. But I have to see them or I'm stuffed. No one will prescribe me what I need without a psychiatrist. I lose all the good programs that help me without them on board. This is just a pathetic whinge from a wound too tight over this pathetic person. 😳😒😡😖

there once was an old woman who swallowed a fly!!!

He wouldn't discuss my old antidepressant with me and really talk about it in terms of the affects it has on me, he just knows what's in the text book. He went in circles and contradicted what other psychiatrists and my GP have told me. He doesn't have the experience (is a registrar) to really discuss anything. I wanted to know and understand some things the very senior psychiatrist (as in who ran the psych ward of major hospital) had told me about the medication I was on and why he changed me to it. Another two very senior psychs in hospital have conferred with me over this and agreed but they don't have the power to prescribe me anything just the rotation registrar psych at the community mental health team. And he put me down and the psychologist jumped in and tried to correct him but he overshot her too. I have a new medication to try but only four weeks worth and he couldn't tell me when my next appointment was or how to get the next script so it is all messy with me having to chase and beg and find a psych willing to write me the next 4week script. Sorry for rant. No wonder dr Teej jumps in and starts messing with her own medication.

I would have to doctor shop to see new GP. They have put a stop to GPs prescribing me things. Yesterday I was kind of fine after I calmed. I was climbing though. Nature of my diagnosis, maybe nature of me. Who knows anymore!! There is no me there is just chaos. Sorry @TAB really reactive. First time I've managed to get home with in an hour but not dealing with it all yet.