I am struggling at the moment

Yes. Think it has @Faith-and-Hope. I saw the human side again although the lines were blurred in my situation so I still feel haunted about that but as much as I felt nauseous and scared to watch it I think it was a relief to put some things in perspective.

That's so interesting about the cats in the park, communal cats so to speak. I hope WH settles back down again soon. I really don't know how you hold it together with it all. I'd have let every emotion bubble to the surface by now 😳:face_with_rolling_eyes:

Ps I'm doing a bit better @Former-Member. When are you working next?

@Former-Member I still struggle with my sleep, and I don't think I have had a really good night sleep in ages, I think the last time was when I felt like I had a bit of spark in me that was probably the last decent sleep I had, and that was back in late June. My Dr said I looked quite bright because I seen her that day, I would be interested to see how my mood was if I could get my sleep back on track.

I am meant to have a sleep study done 13/1 I was due to have it 30/12 but I reschedule because my sleep cycle was bad and I thought it was pointless if I only slept for one or two hours.

I was reading article recently about sleep & exercise some people it makes the sleep worse for them - its something to do with the stress on their body, remember when I did that huge walk months ago and I really struggled to sleep after it- I think I am going to try to get my exercise done in the morning, that is my gym workouts and do my pool sessions in the afternoon and plus I need to get in some beach days- I never seem to get down there- I need some chill days too.

I worked today and it was good, and everyone seemed happy to see me and I thought people didn't like me, it was bit of a reality check for me. At this stage I am doing my volunteer shift on a Monday.

What is your treatment plan looking like atm?

Do you have a new phams worker?

@Faith-and-Hope awww that is so sweet

Hi again @Pepsimax ....

I looked up septo.optic dysphasia .... wow .... that sounds challenging, to say the least .....

I'm glad you follow along with the forums. It sounds like it is something that interests you and I'm guessing it provides a sense of community support even if you are not contributing very actively. It was good to hear from you today (my time today that is 😊) and it would be nice to hear from you some more so we can get to know you better.

Thanks so much for speaking up for @Former-Member today.

Take care.

🌷💜

Hi @Faith-and-Hope your last post made me realise I had none of that calming stuff as a kid. I now see my mother as being a highly anxious person but I don't think she knows that. I'm still scared of my dad much of the time. I guess I have spent much of my life cowering from them. Even now some of my current stress is at my mum who is about to try and control my life because I am not together and things need to be done. It's already arching up. Next week she's threatened to come in and take over. I so need calm and reassuring not erratic and anxious.

I just read your far and away thread and saw how much you are doing and how driven your trip is. It does seem like there is not much room to breathe. I hope you breathe soon. It will be interesting to see if WH takes off when he gets home again to go interstate.

Thank you again for all your calm in all my distress. There has been a lot of it lately. Sending hugs 💜🤗

Hi @Former-Member sorry I missed responding last night. I fell asleep. I think we need to balance out our sleep. I've gone back to too much sleep but always feeling tired. The sleep study will be interesting as was the article about exercise. I'm sure you'd feel different if you slept. You've made so many positive changes and are so determined to feel better @Former-Member, I hope you feel better soon. I really admire your drive and goals. Im sure you'll get so many benefits from it. It's fabulous that volunteering at the zoo is working out. It made me smile to read you were so positively welcomed back. I can't ever imagine you wouldn't have been.

Im also sorry about my really long post on this thread the other day. I'm not sure if it was triggering for you. I didn't think at the time but I guess it was a bit.

I hope today is good for you and you achieve your goals. Keep going I'm in your corner always. 💜🤗