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Somethings wrong

Somethings wrong

Hi. I'm sorry for posting. Apparently I've been here many years ago because I had a log in I didn't know I had. Obviously I've been struggling for some time. I read some of my old posts and things have changed a little. I have a new therapist who I've been seeing for maybe 18months I think.. a while anyway and recently she said she thinks I have DID. I don't think so. I hear voices and I dissociate- like space out or freeze when overwhelmed. I don't have any trauma. Anyway the point is more I was trying to

sort out this confusion and listening to a podcast today whole driving and she was talking about attachment and being terrified of any kind of relationships but also desperately needing them but not knowing how to be comfortable in one so ruining it before it has a chance. Even therapy. Or like over analysing things people do as some test or rejection. Anyway it really overwhelmed me because it was so relatable and then I felt so horrible I just wanted to drive into the bush and not come out. My psych is now on leave for 2 weeks so I don't know what to do. I feel out of it and I know this might sound real odd but for some

reason I've been seeing this chair from my brothers childhood room in my head and feeling sick and I can't stop thinking of it. I can't get hepp

from any family or friends just usually my psych and they're on leave now so

what do I do.

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Hello @destructive

I find people who are behind the Power Threat Meaning Framework are good.

eg https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8dqHg3WYtT8 Might be too long but some of the pdfs are short

https://www.bps.org.uk/sites/www.bps.org.uk/files/Policy/Policy%20-%20Files/PTM%20Summary.pdf

Words can be triggering and confronting. FInding a way that works is not always easy. Not sure if this helps ...

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Thanks for sharing @Appleblossom i haven't been able to listen to the podcast but looked at the PDF briefly (brains not too focused at the moment) but what I did absorb sounds so good. I guess part of my worry is now that label is in writing next to my name and what people will interpret from that. There would be less to misinterpret with that approach. And also yes less confronting/scary because it's just your experience not something wrong if that makes sense. I fee so messed up now. I've been trying just to not think of it but it influltrates everything. I know she was considering that but not that it was official, could have told me. Power is a good word because what power do I have to change that. Tonight's going to be rough

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@destructive

Best of luck getting through tonight. Good Self Care needed.

I had a similar experience about 4 years ago when a Gp put down Bi Polar on my form and I had never heard it applied to me before. It was kind of shocking, rude and unprofessional really. Then I noticed other complete mistakes in her note taking. I had to stay with her for a few years, but was wary, even though she apologised.

DID is a very specific diagnosis and I would think should be made with geat consideration and working with person/client/patient/consumer/ or however you prefer.

Cheers Apple

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I thought I'd just write here rather than clogg things up with another post. Do other people feel like sometimes when you go to ask for help, like when things are really bad and you want to say so, your mind tells you you're just being stupid and need to just snap out of it. That maybe you're just making yourself this way. Then even when you feel so bad you might die you can't ask for help because you're just being stupid. Or worse, someone will actually respond with help which is what you need but then you'll freak out because you really just needed to stop being such a sook and now you've wasted someone's time and worry. How do you overcome that before it kills you. Sometimes I even have to 'prove' to myself I am unwell which involves doing something stupid but then my head says that that was just attention seeking. Even though attention is the last thing I want.

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