@Former-Member It has been stated elsewhere but I also would like to re-inforce that you are wanted here. It is hard in any new environment to feel like you belong, are listened to and supported but the suggestions made by other members tonight all have some validity in helping you forward to being able to have that here for yourself. No-one hates you or wants you to leave but we do all have our own insecurities, trigger points and issues we need to deal with. That does in no way take away your own issues nor does it make it any easier for you at present.
I have seen an amazing amount of support you have shown for so many since your return, you are very empathetic and that is a wonderful quality to have. Sometimes less is more though Hon - by that I mean one post, thought through, re-read and then posted can say a lot more than several in a row. That goes for apologies also - one is enough because we all here are not only very conscious of each other's vulnerabilities but also able to see when things have been misinterpreted or not come across in the way intended.
For that reason I would add to many voices here - maybe not delete everything but take a short break - get some offline support right now and then come back fresh tomorrow. That of course is entirely your choice but as is state very clearly in the community guidelines - this is not a crisis service, it is a peer support forum and if you feel you are in crisis then you need and deserve to get offline help. Your peers will still be here for you when you are able to get through this.
