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When i was teenager i told my older brother. He didn't do anything about it, so i was too embarrassed to tell anyone else. Bottled it up inside. Drank etc. Finally in my 30's I couldn't hide it anymore. I was so messed up. I guess II was too ashamed. Not anymore though. It definitely wasn't my fault

Can we chat on the other thread, please? It's getting confusing for me haha! Thanks. 😀
I'll just pop in the shower first. If you're busy, that's ok. Chat sometime soon. 😀

Interesting to stumble upon this tonight. I was at my GP this afternoon. He asked how I was going. I was explaining that I'm ok but everyday is a struggle. I feel like I need to make an effort all the time despite the fact that life is good. Sometimes it gets tiring trying so hard all the time. I was abused by a priest and stil struggle to acknowledge the impact that has has had on my life. I tend to minimise ...

Sorry to hear about the abuse by a priest, Assisi. Not to be minimized at all. If it was sexual it can impact your whole life. I hope you get the help you need to get undetstanding and help to heal, so that it doesn't destroy your life. It took me many years to acknowledge how devastating sexual abuse/rape is. It destroyed my life for years. I have had alot of counselling etc. And am on the right track. Even reading lots of self help books on the subject helped me get through it. Chat anytime if you like. 😊

Hi @riley,
Sorry I haven't responded sooner. I find these threads very difficult to stay on top of, part of my poor concentration I think. Not responding to you sooner was not a conscious thing.
I too have been diagnosed with a major depressive disorder. Also because my past is dominating my present for too long. It is very hard, and exhausting in my experience. I really struggle with emotions both feeling and expressing them, how about you?

Sounds like the friend you have is a very special person. You are lucky you have found her. Sounds like she has survived a lot and has come through the other side. Has she been able to help you? Are you able to talk to her? Sounds like she could be very understanding???
You said earlier you couldn't talk about what happened to you. I understand how hard that can be...what would help you most? Listening to others or is there something you want to talk about (anything) that I can help by listening to?

Depression is awful to have to deal with Molly and Riley. It does get better eventually, no easy fix unfortunately. Unless anti depressants help you. They do help alot of people, unfortunately they didn't help me and I tried MANY. oh, sorry one of them did years ago. For 2 years I had relief from depression and anxiety, but then the meds stopped working. I've had to search and search for an answer. Lots of counselling to help deal with the traumas rhat happened in my life. Eating healthy and stopped eating foods that didn't agree with me (sugar etc, bad for ADD etc). Lately I feel that I can exercise. Sometimes I can't bring myself to exercise, but it probably us the most important thing to do. Hard to push through the lack of motivation and chronic fatigue. I really recommend counselling and definitely exercise. I remember being told to exercise and it was the last thing I could even imagine doing, but eventually it helos you feel better, if you can push through. Sounds hard, I know. Reading self help books has helped alot also.
Chat again soon. Have to get my girl off to school. 😊

I still fall into a deep hole, sometimes it's hard to get on top again, sometimes not. I'm just coming out of a hole again. 😀 A nap in the day helps. 😊