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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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That's ok babe. So did I

@Former-Member

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@Former-Member Izzy do you have any control over your alters? when they come out or if indeed they are allowed to come out?

Hey @Former-Member I hope you day is going well. I have buggered up my leg trying to keep up with my 82 year old neighbour :o!

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Hey pea, no they just come out when ever they please, especially the 5 year old. I don't try and stop them coming out because that doesn't really work and the outcome can be harmful for me. @Bunniekins

@NatureLover , I am so sorry my friend I saw your post this morning and thought I had replied. Knowing you are in the background supporting me is a huge help. Your truly are a gem. I appreciate and respect you so much.

@Lee82 , glad you got some rest bub. Just finished a session with my psychologist 😞 I hope your day hasn't been to hard.

@Former-Member, sending you huge hugs sweetie

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@Bunniekins ... ha ha ha ... outdone by a sprightly 82yo. 😂💖

Oh I just realised ... same as @Lee82 number. Hi Lee 🌸 Nice coincidence.

@Former-Member ... I note that you had a sad face after your comment that you'd just finished a session with your psychologist. Did it not go so well? No need to respond if you dont wish to. But open to discussing if its helpful to you. Thanks for the hugs ... very much needed here right now. 🤗💕

@Former-Member ... just noticed your Worry Room post. 😔 Those hands of yours can hold on for as long as they need to. Remember to continue to accept as many helping hands (here and off line) as is required to help you along the way. 🌹

Sherry

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Hey hun how did it go with your psychologist? Not good?
Im here sitting with you and willing to listen if you want to talk.
love you 3000

still trying to figure out what movie Always is from...lol

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You have to hold on babe...just a little longer until you feel strong enough to fly. I will hold onto you til the ends of the earth if I have to. I will never let go babe but you have to be willing to take my hand and continue through the darkness to the other side where there is light and happiness and peace.
love you so much my beautiful friend. @Former-Member

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Thanks @Former-Member for your kind words ❤️ I really appreciate them when you are going through so much trauma yourself. And yes, I am here in the background worrying about you and sending hugs (((DizzyIzzy)))

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Talk to me babe.
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I just feel really out of control today. Workcover wont pay for the wellness center or the horse therapy because Sean sourced it himself and it wasn't pre recommended by my gp, that one I can afford so will still be going ahead with that. Monster is in full swing today. Sean wants me to eat I will come back later. @Lee82 @NatureLover @Former-Member @Bunniekins @outlander @Sans911

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Oh no @Former-Member , am sorry to hear all that 😞

Wishing for strength for you and hoping you can stay safe till you can go to the other wellness centre...

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