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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Great to hear you are getting 5 hours sleep a night babe. Do you feel the difference getting a consistant amount of sleep?
great to also see you getting our for a walk hun. Do you still do that every morning?
@Former-Member

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Hello Mel, yeah the sleep is good but now I sleep basically all day. 😞 I am meant to walk every morning but sometimes I just don't have the energy. How are you traveling today? @Lee82 ❤️💖

Sherry, not only did Nics have her little jumper on, I had three layers on and I didn't even get hot. Nics is a shitzu Maltese She is a rescue puppy. We use to foster dogs and cats and when we got her we fell in love and kept her. Hope you day is going well. @Former-Member 🌷

Polly, having mnm's for breakfast once an a while is ok. I would have loved that to be my breakfast this morning. I love mnm's @Pollyotter 🌸

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@Former-Member @Lee82 💚💚

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Hey babe. If your still getting out for a walk every now and then babe that is still fantastic. Keep it up babe. Totally understand you not having energy right now and sleeping a lot with all the meds but don't be so hard on yourself about it. It's all part of your recovery right now.
I am doing as good as I can right now hun.
love you to infinity and beyond babe.
always thinking of you beautiful 💗

@Former-Member

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You guys are amazing, just sayin' 🦖💖

@outlander @Lee82

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as are you @Former-Member 🦖🌻

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So are you beautiful!!
🦋💙🦋

@Former-Member

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Phone privileges reinstated on a trail basis 😊 and I got a new bag, with extra special meaning 🌸🦖🌻 @Lee82 @outlander @Former-Member @Sans911 @Shaz51 @Pollyotter @Bunniekins and everyone else passing thru

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That's fantastic news sweets...I am so happy for you. Gives you a little more freedom hun. 😘😘😘
just waiting for the pic to load babe.
@Former-Member

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@Former-Member great to see you and hear that you have your phone privileges back! ❤

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