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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Yes I realise you are being restricted @Former-Member . Even when I am away from the forums, I still read here a lot and I subscribe to a lot of different threads. I agree with you ... and yeah I too need to check on how my forum family are going. You are all a very important part in my life.

Crows ... nahhh ... I dont really like their squawking much either. But I love magpies carolling. We get some here occasionally, though nowhere near as often as our much more regular kookaburras. We have heaps of parrots of all types too, and even some eagles and hawks drop in. One bird I really dont like much though are the black cockatoos, the yellow tipped ones we get quite a few of here. They come through in large droves and perch on a large gum tree in the middle of our back yard. They are soooo noisy and its an awful screech they make. Very loud, and they do a lot of damage to trees etc. My dog Holly hates them and races down whenever they are screeching in our tree, and tries her best to hunt them. Stands at the bottom of the tree looking up and barking angrily. Eventually they move on ... but no thanks to Holly ... its when they are good and ready.

Anyway, restrictions aside ... I am really happy knowing that someone is watching over you and keeping you safe. Everyone here wants to see you back safe, sound and happy. And ready once more to take on the world.

The hugs are accepted with gratitude ... many thanks to you. And a warm comforting embrace is returned with a caring heart.

Sherry 💕

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@Bunniekins wrote:

...wishing you all a calm and tranquil Saturday. May it be full of love. Love from peaxx


Good morning @Bunniekins ...you always post the most beautiful wishes for people!

Hi @Former-Member , good to see you, I know your time online is limited. Am crossing all my fingers you can get what you need soon in terms of hope and recovery. ❤️

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Hi @Former-Member , good to see you back... I hope you are doing OK and had a lovely birthday yesterday.

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Hey babe. Hope you are doing ok. Last night I just wanted you to know I was around. I thought maybe if you were awake in th middle of the night you may have wanted a little company. I wasn't going to ask you for support babe. I know you can't be that person right now.
love you always babe.
thainking of you always.
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You really have a beautiful heart @Former-Member Bless Holly, she sounds sweet. The wildlife around you sounds amazing, we have to many crows and bin chickens 😂

@NatureLover , I am really looking forward to being able to chat freely again. Hope you have a gentle day.

@Lee82 , sending you so much love today. I am happy for you that you get to go home this weekend and understand the anxiety around that. PLEASE follow through on what you said to @outlander about clearing out your little hiding spaces of anything you could use to harm yourself. If I knew your address I would send you a care package filled with all the things outlander suggested, scented candles, bath bombs, relaxed cd's and a nice soft cuddly oversized jumper. If Kimmy was to send it instead it would be filled with lollies, tim Tams and the biggest teddy she could find. Love always Izzy

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Thank you so much babe. You are beautiful. I will make sure I am safe.
the boys are so excited to be going home. They can't wait.
please look after yourself my sweets and thank you for checking in everyday. I smile every time I see your posts.
love you to infinity and beyond ❤️
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@NatureLover Hey NatureLover thank you what a lovely thing to say :)xxx

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I have to go and play nice with one of my abusers family...😞 they have come to mums for a visit.

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Sending you lots of hugs and all my love @Lee82 💜❤️💜

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@Former-Member 💗

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