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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Hey @Lee82 , I hope you are ok my love.

@outlander and @NatureLover you guys are awesome💜🦕

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Taking it easy is good @Lee82 . 🙂 I hope you can get good sleep tonight when you do go to bed.

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@Former-Member 💚🦕

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Thanks @Former-Member but I think you are awesomer...really hope you can get into a wellness place soon and get some healing happening...

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I'm ok babe. I'm so sorry. You didn't need to see that babe right now.
how are you feeling?

@Former-Member

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Thanks @outlander I appreciate that.
it has hit me like a tonne of bricks. I actually have a bit of news. I am moving back home with my boys this weekend. I think as much as I cannot wait to get out of my mums house because she f**king drives me crazy I am also a little scared and I think that's what brought on the panic attack.

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Totally understandable @Lee82 what i would suggest before you go back is to prepare your home. Take away anything that you would use to sh, have one or two of those terrariums (think thats how you spell it..) so focus on when you feel anxious, have some cds or fave movies there, have a pretty and nice smelling candle that you can light to give a nicr relaxing aroma and that you find soothing (maybe something live lavender) some nice bath stuff like bath bombs and body scrubs for self care and distraction things like puzzles, colouring in, finda words, cross words, nailpolish and pamper type stuff to do..
That way you have distractions and comfort items to help you when you return home

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It's ok Mel, I wasn't going to leave you with no support but as soon as I saw @NatureLover was with you I stepped away. I didn't like stepping away but I know that I am really not the best person to be supporting anyone right now. I am glad that you had Nature and @outlander with you.

love you to the moon and back @Lee82

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I totally understand that babe. Thank you fir being there at the beginning and also for willing to stick around if there wasnt anyone else. You are an amazing friend to me babe.
love you unconditionally

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Your welcome @Lee82

I have pushed my luck as far as it can go tonight so I have to say goodnight. Can't wait till I can just hang out and chat with you all. @Lee82 @outlander @NatureLover @Bunniekins @Zoe7 @Sans911

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