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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Oh goodness @Former-Member your commission piece looks absolutely stunning. How do I go about getting one of these for myself? 😊 I wish it was possible. Really @Former-Member ... I love it. 👍💗 And thankyou for showing us here. 🙏

Emelia

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Thank you beautiful. Do you know you are one of the few people that can make me smile even though I am crying. Thank you for you genuine support and friendship @Emelia8

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@Former-Member 😊💞

Missed you so much these past months Izzy. 🌷🌻🌺

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That's so great to hear my love.
I am not doing anything. Just laying on the couch trying to contain everything within.

Your commission piece hun is absolutely amazing. I would also hang it somewhere so I could look at it everyday. The colours are beautiful and the way it flows into one another is spectacular.
@Former-Member

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You should be extremely proud of yourself @Former-Member. Fffh-isn't great?! Far better than me. I think it's outstanding and obviously the person who bought it does too.

I have a friend who sings and is often saying that she doesn't get the big opportunities or recognition. But I say to her, be grateful for any ability to have to be recognised, big or small. Because they are many who would like to have half her (or yours) talent.

🥰🥰🥰😍🥰🥰

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You are doing just fine Mel, if lying on the couch is all you can do right now then that's enough. Waking up tomorrow to start all over again is enough. Just doing that is all you need to do until you are strong enough to do something else. Never forget how much inner strength you have and how much you have to offer. Unfortunately I just had to have my night meds so they will kick in soon. 🥺 I have enjoyed actually talking with you and Em tonight, it makes a nice change from just responding to messages. What are you doing tomorrow afternoon? I will be free after lunch if you are up for more chatting. I will be around for a little more tonight, if I abruptly stop responding then I have just fallen asleep. @Lee82 @Emelia8

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Thank you so much @Sans911 You are very on point with your advice as usual my friend. It was hard standing in their office listening to their praise but I am very proud of the piece. Hope you are doing as ok as you can be. Sending you some hugs

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For those of us so hurt by many, it's often hard to accept praise @Former-Member. But you've made someone happy, so you hold your head high.

I'm OK as I can be. In lots and lots of pain and stiffness in my hips. Very tired as well. Hugs right back at you & @Lee82 ❤️❤️

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I have truly enjoyed being. Le to speak with you too hun.
I love you with all my heart.
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Wow @Former-Member your artwork is sensational!!!! Well done xxx

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