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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Thank you so much for your kind words and your support @Mellysmellyelly

things have been real tough. Hope you are coping ok with this snap lockdown.

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I cannot begin to explain just how much i miss you beautiful. I'm sure I would get into trouble for expressing just how I am feeling right now so I will just say that I think about you everyday, that I miss you terribly, that I hope more than anything that you are ok and that I love you to infinity and beyond ❤️ @Former-Member ❤️
please come back to me Izzy.

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Sleep seems so far away. I can't relax even after trying so many different things. I am just getting more and more frustrated. I hate this time of night. Makes you feel more alone, isolated and makes me feel more out of control. Thoughts running through my head right now are not good.

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Miss you beautiful so very much.

@Former-Member

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Hugs @Lee82 , here for you my friend xx

@Former-Member

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@Shaz51 Thank you. How have you been today hun?

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Woke up very Tired this morning my @Lee82

Worked for the morning

And had the afternoon off which is good as I have a big neck ache, have to take something soon for it

How are you feeling today xx

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I hear you about waking up tired. I was the same. Didn't get much sleep last night. Had to homeschool my boys today. That was a challenge and a patience tester. I felt like I just couldn't concentrate on the topics with them. I was getting frustrated they were getting frustrated. It wasn't good at all. I must have asked them the same questions over and over again.
now I am just laying down under a blanket trying to conceal and control my anxiety before I have to go over to mums for dinner. :face_with_rolling_eyes:

so glad to hear you had the afternoon off babe. Hope you were able to rest a little especially your neck. @Shaz51 💚

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Big breath and hugs my @Lee82

Will be thinking of you tonight

You are great home schooling your boys

Having a cuppa coffee xx

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Enjoy your coffee my friend and thank you for your wonderful support. I hope the rest of your day goes well and you are able to get your sore neck under control. ❤️ @Shaz51

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