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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Former-Member Whilst I completely respect your need for a break please know you have done absolutely nothing wrong. It is unfair to heap any blame on yourself at all and add to the stress you already have in your life at present. In saying that we all love you here and will be holding this space for you until your return. Give yourself the time you need but know also we are here with you, care about you and have nothing but love and respect for you

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Dearest @Former-Member

You are such a beautiful soul. Don't ever let anyone dim your light. Love you beautiful girl. I'm so sorry that you feel like your axis has tipped now. Praying for your son and you and hoping for a shift. Hugs and love always xox

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Oh my love I just want to give you the biggest hug.
@Former-Member so relieved you are safe.

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@Former-Member

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Hey hun. I just wanted to ask how cat was doing?
have you gotten her results back yet?

@Zoe7

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@Lee82 Hey Lee82 I am getting better step by step. Taking each day as it comes I know you know how it is. How are you going? I hope you are doing okay. Love peaxx

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Hey @Lee82 Cat's last blood tests were good but she has her next ultrasound coming up in a couple of weeks. Hopefully that shows nothing and the chemo meds are working 👍😺 She so far looks healthy and happy so I am trying to be optimistic that everything is tracking okay.

Enjoy your last day Hon. Wish the holiday didn't need to end for you but hang onto those special memories you have created with your boys

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Hey my friend so glad to hear you are managing ok. I am still I. The Sunshine Coast but leaving for home tomorrow. Just relaxing by the pool today and going out for dinner tonight.
hope you Tuesday is a good one for you hun.

sending you lots of hugs

@Bunniekins ❤️💚💜🧡💛💙❤️

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So glad to hear about cat babe. Sounds all really positive.
just relaxing by the pool today taking it easy before our very stressful and tiring trip back home tomorrow.

sending you some love hun and hoping you have a good day today gorgeous

@Zoe7 ❤️💜💚💚💛💙❤️

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Hey my love. How are you doing today? How is your son going?
I haven't stopped thinking of you beautiful. I know you are safe but I also know that you are struggling quite a lot and I am worried.
I am holding your hand and holding you close to my heart.
love you unconditionally, always and forever, to the moon and back. 3000. @Former-Member

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