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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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The family will be here @Lee82 so I’ll buy the food and issue instructions as my wrist is out of action.

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Do you host Christmas every year? How many of you coming to Christmas at your place?
is turkey what you traditionally have every year?
@Eve7

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Sometimes we go south @Lee82 but I can’t cope with all that expanded family this year.

Its either at my home or S2’s as he also has a pool. There’s 10 of us here so that’s manageable but if we go south there can be 50. They would’ve come here this year but covid stopped that.

Its usually turkey with veg and all the trimmings, pudding etc. We did prawns etc when h was alive but not now.

I’ve got all the lights and decos up too. I know it will be ok with just the 10 of us...hopefully.

What plans do you have?

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10 seems very doable hun. Nice and intimate and turkey with all the trimmings sounds wonderful. I have never actually eaten roasted turkey before but have always wanted to try it.
Christmas Day is at mums as it is every year. There will be 9 of us for lunch and Mum always does seafood for Chrissy. This year it's oysters and prawns, lobster and whole fish. My brother has decided to become a vegetarian so Mum has to cook him something different and my 9 year old son hates seafood and has requested pasta carbonara. So lots going on for us.
@Eve7

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We had a relative turn up one Christmas with her own Devon sandwiches to eat!!

My h would have loved Christmas at your mum’s as I don’t really like seafood.

I’ll tell a funny story about one of our family traditions but not tonight.

I’m off to bed hun so will say good night and I hope you sleep well.

❤️💚❤️

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Good morning everyone. Hoping your Sunday is a relaxing day for you and that you are able to enjoy the day. Thinking of you all. ❤️💚💜💙🧡💛

@Former-Member @Eve7 @Anastasia @Zoe7 @outlander @Schitzo @Emelia8 @Sans911 @Fluttershy1 @Snowie @NatureLover @Faith-and-Hope

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Thanks @Lee82 🙏 you too 💓

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Thank you sweetheart @Lee82 ditto to you x

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Child alter did a fabulous job @Former-Member

Must have your gift when it comes to art ❤️💙💜

Glad it all washed off. Love to you always x

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Oh @Eve7 I'm so sorry to hear that. Please take of you hun. Sending you a gentle hug and lots of love. ❤️💙💚💚🧡💛💜❤️

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