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I feel the same way babe. I am sorry we keep missing each other on here. My Saturday was mentally not great but hey it's the path we are all traveling right now. This time of year Izzy was great at shoving it all down and getting into the Christmas spirit but she is still gone and I couldn't be bothered pretending. Since our kids are all adults now and we won't be seeing our granddaughter this year no effort has been given, not a single decoration has been but up and usually by now it looks like the elves spewed up tinsel all through our place. Christmas music or movies would have been on all day, Christmas baking would have been done and hubby would be getting into trouble for eating too much of it. I am sorry I lied, I was nagged into getting a Christmas tree by hubby's sister and my neighbour but it's a small glass on and sits on our craft table. Our visits with Nat are going ok, we usually have a healing done as we have the other Natalie the day before her. It helps to move the emotions on, most of time after a healing I feel like my old self it can last just the afternoon but I have been lucky enough to have one healing last all weekend.

D3 has moved home temporarily as her flat mate turned out to be verbally abusive but she is moving out with two girlfriends early February. Moving out has definitely made her different in a good way and she is back to my girl before the stuff happened 3/4 years ago. I had a dream that D1 was pregnant but didn't know weather the father was her partner or Russell Brand!!!!!! I know I only had a dream about it because one of her sisters said that she posted about not being able to get an ultrasound till Wednesday. Grandma's hopes are high.

How are you feeling? How are the boys and Boris? Sending you heaps and heaps of hugs my love. Wishing dearly that you where sitting beside me having a morning cuppa. I love you Mel. @Lee82

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So far so good @Lee82 hardly stood still yesterday. Just woke now and hoping for a rest today. Time will tell.

How are you hun? Is it school holidays already?

Dear @Former-Member ... I have to say that its so nice seeing you around a bit more these past few days. It sounds as though you are gradually improving a little. I really hope that continues to be the case. These 'healing' sessions you speak of ... sound particularly good. So pleased to hear that you have finally found something which gives a small amount of relief to you.

Sounds good that D3 is more like her old self, after having been in a flat and being somewhat independent. Sounds promising in that field. Oh wow ... wouldnt that be nice ... the possibility of a little grandchild to be. Fingers crossed. Oh dear ... I hope Russell Brand is not involved, lol. 🤣 Good to see you have retained your sense of humour. 💞

Sending you lots of love, hope and healing. And to @Lee82 as well. Hi @Anastasia

Emelia 🌸

Hey Nikki. I am so happy to see you hear my love. Christmas time for me is so damn hard too babe so I understand about not wanting to do anything. Like you said i am having to try and shove everything way down in my gut and out on my happy and excited mask to be able to do all the festive things with the kids.

i am terribly sorry that you won't be seeing your granddaughter this year for Christmas hun. May I ask why that is? No need to answer if you don't want to.
sounds like whatever you are doing with Nat has been somewhat effective. So great to hear you have been able to feel like your old self feom Time to time. That sounds a showing you my love that you can do it. You can get back to your old self. It just takes a hell of a lot of time. I am so very proud of you beautiful for not giving up and for giving it your all. You are amazing.
Also super happy that D3 is back to her old self again. It is so true that distance makes the heart grew fonder. Having said that I am sad that she has been treated so badly by her roommate. That is not acceptable at all. I hope she finds happiness somewhere else and is able to put this behind her.

So warming to hear you still have your sense of humour hun. here's hoping it's not Russell Brand but hoping you get to have another grandchild if there is any truth to that dream. 😁

I am holding on my love. The boys are doing great. They are up at the lake with Jules this weekend. Mr13 has already finished school and Mr9 finishes on Wednesday. They are super excited about Christmas.
Boris has been a good boy and has loved Mr13 being home as he has been getting out for a walk everyday with him. That's something I just can't bring myself to do at the moment.
wish I was there with you too babe. Nothing I want more right now.
love you to infinity and beyond

@Former-Member

So good to hear that you have been doing well. I was the same yesterday. So very much to do so little time but today I am doing nothing at all as I have a super busy week ahead of me and I am already freaking out about how the hell I am going to get through it.
Mr13 finished school on the 4th. I tell you the more you bloody pay for school fees the less they go to school. :face_with_rolling_eyes:

Mr9 finishes on Wednesday. They are both with their dad up at the lake skiing with friends this weekend so I have been home On My own.
How is your boy going hun? What does Christmas look like for you? @Anastasia

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how was your night hun? Did you get some rest? Any plans for today?

Hi @Lee82 I'm glad you are having rest today.

I'm about to head out to out boat in the water for a couple of hours. I'll come back and update you later sorry. Sending you love ❤️

I do have a few minutes. Yes I agree about the school, my boys went to both and the private always broke up sooner and went back later!!!!

We celebrate on the 24th with my family and then bf's on the 27th. I'm excited. I am almost finished my shopping but just waiting on my pay to hit before I can finish.

Wishing you all the best with your busy week hun, love always xxx

Oh how wonderful @Anastasia enjoy the water and beautiful weather. Sending you all my love. ❤️

@Anastasia How was your day out on the water babe? How you doing today?

@Eve7 how you feeling today hun? How's your wrist going?