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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I am so sorry my friend, these past two weeks have been very difficult for me. It got to the point where they where considering hospital again. There is so much I haven't been able to say to you or talk about with you and I really could have used my BFF as well. Things aren't as bad right now and there is a glimmer of hope that maybe just maybe we are coming out of this wave of dark depression that has had us crippled to the point of not even getting out of bed. I have to go as I am due to see Nat in a bit, so going to have a quick smoke before that. I will try hard to check in with you a little later. Love you heaps @Lee82

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Hey beautiful. So lovely to see you here my love. I am so sorry things have been difficult for you these past two weeks. I so wish I could hold you in my arms and comfort you. Things have been difficult here too but I am trying to do my best to push the dark monster away. Christmas time is the hardest time of the year for me and in 10 days is a day I wish I could forget but with each passing day the memory seems to be creeping up. It likes to torment me.
anyway I am sure hearing all this stuff is probably the last thing you need or want right now. I would absolutely love to catch with you later on if you feel up to it gorgeous.

sending you all my love and lots of gentle hugs.
❤️💜💙💚🧡💛❤️ @Former-Member

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That's ok hun. This time of the year is crazy for everyone. I am hanging in there. Just trying to get by the best I can. @Anastasia

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@Emelia8 How have you been feeling my friend?

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Getting there thanks @Lee82 ... a little better each day. Treatment plan agreed to now too, and therapy start dates pencilled in. 😔

So good to see you Lee. And you also @Former-Member 💖

Emelia 🌷

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That's great to hear hun. It's been difficult to be on here lately but have missed everyone so very much. I feel like I am so far behind everyone's threads. @Emelia8

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Thinking of you beautiful @Former-Member

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Hey sweetie @Lee82

Sending out some love to you all. @Emelia8 @Anastasia @Snowie @outlander @Zoe7 @Bunniekins @Eve7 @Shaz51 @Maggie

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My love @Former-Member ❤️

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How did you go with Nat?

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