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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Hey fourm family and friends, just popping in to say hello and let you know that I am missing you all. I got down to my paint room today and spent most of the of time in my corner (that's the picture) it's been another long hard week with anniversaries. I hope you all are doing the best you can and you are remembering to be gentle with yourself

Hey Mel, I am so happy that you are home with the boys and Boris. Please be kind to yourself and keep yourself safe as well. Love you 3000 and miss you terribly.

@Lee82 , @Zoe7 @Emelia8 @Bunniekins @NatureLover @outlander @Sans911 @MDT @Eve7 @Anastasia @Shaz51 @Maggie @Schitzo @Angels333

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so glad you got into your paint room @Former-Member and its really good to see you

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@Former-Member Your art room sounds amazing.

Take care.❣️❣️❣️❣️

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Good to hear you spent some time in your special art room dear @Former-Member

Always thinking of you 💞

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@Former-Member Hey hunny am loving your corner:). It is super pea cute xxxx. Thanks for dropping by have been wondering how you were going. Love peaxx

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Its good to hear from you. I'm glad you got to spend some time in your paint room. I love the baby dolls in the corner.

Take care 🌷 xx

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Hi @Former-Member ... really great to hear from you. I know its an effort, and that effort is very much appreciated by all your many friends here. I worry about you Izzy, and want so badly for you to get well.

Thanks for sharing your pic. Im glad you are back spending time in your fantastic paint room. Your little corner looks cosy and safe.

Hope your run of traumatic anniversaries has concluded.

Sending lots of love your way.

Love to you too @Lee82

Em 😊💖🌻🌺

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Hey beautiful. I am so so happy to hear from you babe. It was so amazing to wake up to this message on my birthday.
so wonderful to know that you have been back in your paint room hun.
your corner looks very comfy. I wish I was there right now with you in your corner.
missing you terribly hun but understand why you can't be here right now. I hope all your anniversaries are now over for you babe. Love you always and forever ❤️ Please give kimmy a hug from me and let her know I miss her and Also Nikki. If this is nikki hey sweetie and please let Izzy know she is forever in my heart and that I miss her so very very much.
@Former-Member

@Emelia8 hey hun. Sending you lots of Love and hugs ❤️💙💜

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Hey @Lee82 hope today has been a bit better for you.

For self care I do some of the following (sometimes works, sometimes doesn’t)

Cook

walk on beach

read (trying 1 book per week from library)

Gratitude journal (very hard but getting better)

Netflix

Running (starts up again tomorrow)

knit

movies with friends

play on floor with grandkids

Maths (sudoku)

write down how I feel then tear it up and throw away

limit screen time when feeling down

access safety plan

rude bike to the border and back

Happy Birthday dear friend 🎂

Hope this is useful for you 💕💖💕

Hi @Former-Member thanks for the tag Sending love

💗 💜🌸

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Happy birthday my love, sending you all the love you want and wishing dearly that you where with me in my corner as well. @Lee82

@outlander @Emelia8 @Bunniekins @Anastasia @Schitzo @Eve7 💜💜💜💜

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