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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Oh babe, sending you my most squishiest hugs I can muster. I really wish there was a way for me to support you but even if I didn't have restrictions on being here I am just not mentally capable right now. I get worked up very easily and lose control of everything 😞 I am sorry my love. @Lee82

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Please don't apologise babe. Just please take care of you that's all I wish for babe. I want you to stay as safe as you can. You need to concentrate on yourself and feeling better.
I love you unconditionally babe and I want you back healthy.
you checking in daily is more than I can ever ask from you right now.
so for that thank you my love

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Well time is up again😞 hopefully I can you you both in the morning so we can chat a little more. Please if you see our other friends Sans, Zoe, Nature and Pea around let them know I am thinking of them, but don't really feel safe to go to other threads and say hi or even just to tag them here. 😞

@outlander, goodnight sweetie, I hope you manage to get some decent sleep

@Lee82 , my love please take care of yourself as well. I can't wait to be sharing good times and break throughs with you. Love you 3000 my beautiful friend. Chat as soon as I can

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Wish we could chat longer babe but know it's time for you to go. Hope to speak to you tomorrow babe.
love you to infinity and beyond babe and I will be thinking of you tonight.
please be kind to yourself and stay safe for me babe.
@Former-Member

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goodnight @Former-Member hope you sleep well

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How you feeling @outlander

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feeling quite sick @Lee82
shouldn't have had that small treat. pushed it abit far. taken some pain meds so hopefully will help abit. will go for a shower soon after playing with ponies half the day.

how are you going? has your headache eased abit?

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I'm so sorry @outlander you must be so frustrated. I wish I could take it all away for you babe.
my headache has eased thanks for asking.
@outlander

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it ok just managing the best I can for now @Lee82 ill have a confirmed date tomorrow as to when ill see speclialist so is a start.

im glad your headaches eased too now,hows your tv show going/?

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Yea that's definitely a start @outlander hopefully some clear answers from then onwards.
to be honest I havent really been concentrating

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