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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Schitzo Hey Schitzo have a great Tuesday. Love peaxxx

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Thank you @Bunniekins, I hope you have a great day too 💚 xx

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Hey friends, just wanted to pop in and say hello. Things are not good here, we finally got the courage to go amd see our girlfriend and the kids this morning. We managed to be there for 30 minutes before leaving as there was already about 15 people there. There is no service because they don't think he would have wanted one but there is a viewing which I know already that I won't cope with so not doing that but they are having a wake and putting down a Hungie ( probably not spelt right) so we will go for as long as we can to that.

Nikki and Izzy are not functioning at all and today having his two youngest 13 and 16 run up us and hug us more tightly than you would think possibly, and not let go for the longest of time has completely undone they again.

Missing you all and hoping everyone is ok as they can be. @Lee82 @Schitzo @Bunniekins @outlander @Anastasia @Zoe7 @NatureLover @Shaz51

Mel, I love you 3000 @Lee82

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Sending lots and lots of ❣️❤️💞

I am sorry, I wish I could do more there aren't enough words xx

@Former-Member

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Missing you to @Emelia8

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Miss you too @Former-Member 🌺😔

Sorry I havent posted in a while, been a bit quiet for a few days. I still think of you all every day. I am so sorry the death of your good friend has hit you all so hard. Glad you were able to spend some time today with his young family though. Its pretty clear from the kids reactions that Izzy and Nikki are very special to them. I think its great you plan to share a hungi with them. 🌹

Miss you all very much, and look forward to the day you feel comfortable to be here once more. Amongst fellow forum members who love and care for you. 💖😊🌺🐶🌷

Shout out to @Lee82 ... I read your worry room post earlier, and am very concerned about you. Please do take care. 💝

Emelia 🌷

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@Former-MemberHey Dizzyizzy was just thinking of you yesterday and wondering how life was treating you. Sorry to hear about your friend. We lost a friend in his mid thirties and he left behind a wife and two primary school aged children. It was so tough. Am here if you need me. Anytime. Love always peaxxx

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@Emelia8 Hey Em how are you and how did you go yesterday?xx

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Morning @Bunniekins 💖

Saw surgeon yesterday. He answered all my questions. Going to be more disfiguring than I'd thought. 😔 Should have date for surgery by end of week. Will be sometime next month. How are you going?

Emelia 🌷

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@Former-Member

My thoughts and prayers are with you all 🕯️🙏💕 xx

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