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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Zoe7That's good. How have you been? Have you been okay?

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Thinking of you beautiful.
remember our promise.

i love you to the moon and back

❤️💜💙💚🧡💛

@Former-Member

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Been thinking of you today @Anastasia

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Dear @Former-Member ... I see that you had a long and busy day planned for today. I hope it all went okay for you and also your nephew.

I've missed talking these past few weeks @Former-Member ... whether that be Nikki, Izzy or Kimmy. I miss you all. 😊🌺 And I thank you also for all the lovely messages you posted to my thread while I have been away these past 2/3 weeks. It has helped to make me feel somewhat connected during a very difficult time. So thanks so much for that, I really appreciate you taking the time to do that. You are a very special person (in your entirety) ... in so many ways, and I hope you know that?

It seems I'm all talked out now, after an emotional day and one where I have spilled my heart and worries out too many times. I'm wearing out and need a rest. But I could not do so without touching base with you, my very special friend.

I think of you every day, whether I am here or not, and I want you to always know that. Thank you sweet friend.

A wave also to @Lee82 @Bunniekins @WIP @Anastasia ... you are all in my thoughts, with many of you going through a tough time right now.

Emelia 💕

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@Former-Member

Miss my BFF. 😕

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Good morning my love, missing you too. @Lee82

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Good to see you this morning @Former-Member 🌼💕🌸

Hi also @Lee82 🌻💖

Emelia

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@Former-Member

Sending you all my love and lots of hugs my beautiful BFF

❤️💜💙💚🧡💛❤️

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Good morning @Emelia8 , firstly I am so very happy that you are back we all missed you terribly. I am sorry for all that is going on for you right now. Thank you for your beautiful message probably about two days ago now, you are such a sweet friend and I am very blessed to know you. Hoping today is easy for you.

Morning @Anastasia , sending you lots of love and some gentle hugs to my friend. Know when I am not here I think of you often.

Good morning @Bunniekins , I hope you are doing ok my sweet beautiful friend. I was shopping the other day for glitter in the most amazing glitter shop ever and for some reason I thought you would love it. I brought a green glitter I didn't really need because it was sparkling and shinning bright through the other greens and I have name it my greenpea. Have a nice easy Saturday lovely.

Morning @NatureLover , hoping that whatever you are doing today goes easy and flows peacefully. You are a remarkable friend, thank you.

Morning @Zoe7 , @outlander , @Shaz51, @WIP @Snowie , @Maggie , @MDT, @Ant7 , @Sans911, @Calmblueocean , @Schitzo @Faith-and-Hope, @Eve7 @Lee71 and anyone els who is passing through this way I wish you all a blessed Saturday and hope you find sunshine and joy in your day my friends.

Morning my sweet beautiful friend, how I have missed you 😔 I hope you are as ok as you can be right now. Did the boys go to Jules's this weekend or do I have my weekends wrong. How have you been? How is birth giver doing? Just so you know it's our promise that has kept me somewhat sane these passes few days. Missing you with all my heart. Love you 3000, to infinity and beyond Always Mel. @Lee82

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@Former-Member 💕💗💕💗💕💗

Em 😊

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