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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Hey Mel, I have been out cold all afternoon as I needed a something to calm me down after the appointments. They went as well as can be expected when you can't stand people you love touching you but have to let two unknown males do it! I am still groggy and am about to take my night meds so will be asleep again quite quickly. I have a MH appointment first thing tomorrow morning so that should be fun😩 hope you are as ok as you can be. Love you so very very much @Lee82

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Thank you so much for letting ne know hub.
I am so sorry it wab traumatic fir you.
I am sitting with you hokding your habd.
I love you always babe

@Former-Member

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I am sorry I didn't see your message Mel and that you where obviously struggling when you typed it. I really hope you are fast asleep now. Love you heaps beautiful lady. @Lee82

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All the best with your appointment this morning @Former-Member , I'll be thinking of you xxx

Sending love also to @Lee82 and everyone else here x

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Thanks @Anastasia , I hope your day is kind to you.

Good morning beautiful, I truly hope your night wasn't to rough on you and that you managed so decent sleep. I am off now for my MH appointment 😔 at least I can sleep all the way there. You are an amazing friend and I am so blessed that you are willing to be that friend. Love you 3000 to infinity and beyond Always @Lee82

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I will be with you through this babe. Hold me in your heart. You can do it babe. I have faith in you. I love you always and forever my beautiful BFF ❤️
@Former-Member

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I will be with you through this babe. Hold me in your heart. You can do it babe. I have faith in you. I love you always and forever my beautiful BFF

❤️
@Former-Member

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Good morning all. Last night I had 8 hours sleep straight. First time in a very long time. Feeling a bit groggy this morning due to meds but other than that I feel somewhat ok.
I hope everyone's day has a little sparkle in it. Sending you all lots of hugs and well wishes.
@Former-Member @Anastasia @Bunniekins @Maggie @NatureLover @Zoe7 @Faith-and Hope @Snowie @outlander @Fluttershy1 @Schitzo @Angels333 @Sans911 @Emelia8

and anyone else I may have missed I'm so sorry my mind is a little fuzzy.

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@Lee82 @Former-Member @Anastasia @Bunniekins @Maggie - I hope you are all well ❤️

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Good morning @Lee82, I'm glad you had a good night's sleep and are feeling ok. Wishing you a happy and peaceful day.

Take care of yourself 🤗🌸💙

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