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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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You guys are the best. No doctor needed @Lee82 I am a little worse for wear but I will be ok. Shadow demanded attention yesterday making it very difficult afternoon/night. Thank you and @Anastasia @for your concern but I am ok

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Glad to hear you are ok @Former-Member thank you for letting @Lee82 and I know. Hoping you are fast asleep now xxx

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@Anastasia, been awake for almost an hour. Thank you for checking in with me last night it means a lot. I spent 15 hours in my paint room yesterday making up for lost time😊 How are your boys doing?

Good morning my love, I really hope we can chat a little sometime today and not play worry tag😏 Kimmy was happy to message you but the poor thing is feeling it this morning. Love you so much beautiful @Lee82

Damp sideways again😩😩 this is what I was doing yesterday. None are finished yet but it was a huge start that to my wonderful neighbour coming over and helping me.

Good morning to my wonderful fourm family

@Bunniekins @outlander @Eve7 @Zoe7 @Emelia8 @Maggie @Shaz51 and everyone I have missed

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@Former-Member That’s a long time in the paint room. Can’t see pic yet but looking forward to seeing what you are creating.

Sending 💕💕💕

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15 hours, wow @Former-Member I can't wait for your picture to load to see what you got up to.

It's a pleasure, I always have you on my mind and wish I could get in here more often than I can.

My boy is off to his Dad's for a few days so with that comes worry (if he'll take meds, be suported, get there safely, return and go into remission which is usually the case) and plus I really miss him. He'll be up soon to leave so I'll try to get a little bit more sleep but don't like my chances. Thank you for asking hun, you're a good friend x

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Good morning beautiful. How you feeling hun?
Please tell kimmy thank you so very much for letting me know about yesterday. Give her a big squishy hug for me. 💜

geez 15 hours 😳😳 no wonder you had a saw knee hun but I see what you have done....are they heart shaped boxes? Did you paint them in Your paint room?
I hope we don't play worry tag either babe. I hate that game too.
hank you so much for posting an update this morning babe. It meant a lot.
love you to the moon and back my gorgeous BFF

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I'll be thinking of you today my friend @Anastasia

sending you some strength, love and hugs. ❤️

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Thank you @Lee82 xxx

Right back at you my friend ❤️

@Former-Member your boxes look fabulous well done 🌹

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@Lee82 , yes/well no I didn't paint them I covered them in glitter and they are not finished yet. They will be jewellery boxes for our 3 daughters and granddaughter.

These drinks bottles are only halfway done. My paint room isn't completely done yet so I waiting to take pictures to show how beautiful it is. love you heaps my love. @Lee82 🌹

@Anastasia, hope you managed a little more sleep my friend. 💜

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Oh that's so cute hun. So amazing that you are making everyone's presents. That is just so much more personal and from the heart.
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