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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I'm doing fine, thank you @Former-Member 🌼 how are you?🤗🌸💙xxx

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I am having a rough night unfortunately, don't cope well when people show up unannounced 😔 Bedtime for me in 15 so hubby will get rid of them soon so that is good. @Schitzo

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No no no no I csnt I don't know For sad sure. Maybe I'm going crazt maybe it's in my head. But I know I saw him I know did. But maybe I difnt

he was there I know he was I saw him but wat if I didn't

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@Former-Member I'm sorry you are having a rough night. when they go to you will be able to relax hopefully🌸🌺🌼

Good night @Former-Member, I hope you have a nice restful sleep🌻

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I am so sorry this is happening for you sweetie. If you see him for sure then go to the police my love.

Try and do your best to breathe through this panic hun. You are safe now at home with your boys, he can't hurt you anymore @Lee82

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My bous are not here. They are with my brother.
I dint frem safe. I donr know what thh do. I wish you were here withme. I wabt you here

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It would be hard for you to feel safe right now Mel, you are constantly in flight or fight mode and your mind and body must be exhuasted. Do you have a favourtie calming song or music that you could put on right now? Me too my love, me too @Lee82

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Babe what do I do what can I do I feel lost right now. I feel like I am cornered. Every tribe I close my eyes I see hin. Sh and si are so damn high right now. I thibk I probably wahould get offline for niw cause I am afraid I an going to be in trouble by mods foe saying the wrong thing again.
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Take care of yourself @Lee82 - glad you're reaching out and taking steps to help ensure you're safe and supported. We care about you deeply and I sincerely hope that tomorrow is better for you.

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I'm sorry I'm so d sad sorry

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