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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Please Mel can you let me know you are as ok as you can be. @Lee82

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I am so sorry my love. I have been asleep most of the morning. I am as safe as I can be but I am not doing good at all/

@Former-Member

how you doing hun?

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I already knew you wouldn't be good today, I am happy you have been sleeping though. How bad did the monster get last night? What are you doing for the rest of the day?

I am exhausted as normal, but I had my niece and nephew here this morning with their 8 week old son Kyson. My neighbour is doing her wedding dress alterations. They are getting married in November. So I am extra tried now, Hubby has just gone to work so I will rest for a couple of hours I think. Mood swings are shocking today and the monster is lurking in the corner waiting for a moment of weakness.

Please keep yourself safe my love @Lee82

@NatureLover , sending you some love light and heaps of hugs my wonderful friend

I hope whatever you are doing today I hope it comes easily and you find moments of sunshine in your day

@outlander @Anastasia @Emelia8 @Eve7 @Zoe7 @Schitzo @frog (happy birthday for yesterday my friend) @TAB @MDT @Ant7 @Shaz51 @Maggie @Snowie @Judi9877 @Lostandalone

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naww...would have been beautiful holding a 8 weeks old baby. Did you kidnap him for the morning?

You have to tell the monster to f**k off and leave you alone babe.

I don't have any plans for the rest of the day. Hoping to just sleep the day away. I managed to keep the monster away last night. First time in a very long time. I just have no energy, no motivation, no want anymore. I am done.

i love you to infinity and beyond, always and forever ❤️
@Former-Member

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@Former-Member 💙

@Lee82 💚

@NatureLover 💜

@outlander ❤️

@Emelia8 🌸

@Eve7 🌷

@Zoe7 🌞

@Bunniekins 💚

Love to you all...still away with my boy xxx

Hello to everyone popping by xxx

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You are not done my love, you are going to hold on for your boys, your brother and me. Keep that hope that one day we maybe able to meet. But in saying that I completely understand that feeling of being done because that is where I am as well.

Before all of this I would have stolen him but right now I don't have the energy for that. Missing my friend so much, I know that I am going to be asleep soon my eyes are burning and heavy. Love you 3000, to infinity and beyond Always @Lee82

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Hope you are having a wonderful time my love.
Great memories to make and cherish.
@Anastasia 💗

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Loving his little giraffe outfit..😍

I am sorry your feeling that way too my love. It is not a great place to be at the moment. I am holding on as much as I can I just feel like there is no more anyone can do. I fear there are no new therapies to try and that I am at the end of the rope.
i hope you are able to rest hun and hope you get up feeling better.
love you always.
@Former-Member

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Hye @Lee82, it sounds like you are holding on today, even though you're not feeling a lot of hope. I'm so sorry you are sitting with that today. You mentioned planning to sleep today if you can, so I hope you at least can get a good rest 🌻

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hello and hugs @Lee82 , @Former-Member

hello @Anastasia , @NatureLover

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