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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Snowie Hey Snowie I hope you are having a lovely day. With warm blue sky and summer breezes. Love peaxxx

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Hi @Snowie , my day has been pretty good so far. Hope your day is going great too xxx 🤗🌼💚

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@Lee82 💚

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Today must be pretty rough for you my love, I am sorry that you are struggling today. Sending you all my love. @Lee82

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just telling you know babe that I am safe but not doing good today. I am so sorry I haven't been around. It has been tough and I have had several panic attacks which have been pretty bad. I had an appointment with my psychologist and it Juts brought up a lot of :pile_of_poo:. I just can't cope right now. I have taken a few sedatives through out the day. Don't worry hun they are prescribed and I have taken the right amount each time.
how has your day been? How are you feeling?
@Former-Member

love you 3000 and I have missed you so much and needed my BFF here with me. 😞

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You ok my love?

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I am having an ok day I guess got lots done but feel like I should have done more. I am sorry you day has been so bad, I truly wish I was there for you. @Lee82

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@Former-Member @Lee82 💗💗

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No it's ok my love. So happy to hear today is an ok day and that it has been productive. That is fantastic. Don't be so hard on yourself babe. There is always tomorrow to do more. I haven't done anything today at all. I had a lot on my list but didn't get anything done. The day just turned out real :pile_of_poo:

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@Emelia8 how you going hun? I am so sorry I haven't responded to your messages on your thread. Know that I have been reading along and I have you always in my thoughts. You are an amazing person and such a wonderful friend. I see only good in you. Please also try and be kind to yourself. You are entitled to your feelings and you are also entitled to share them with your friends on your own thread or in my eyes anywhere you feel comfortable. I always appreciate your support. Sending you a gentle hug beautiful. Hoping that things start to get better for you.

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I was at my sisters just now and her partner was drunk, I've never been so scared of someone I know won't hurt me, he was loud and in my space, hubby asked him to move a couple of times and he did but damage done.

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