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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Emelia8 I'm so sorry to hear about your night hun. How you feeling?

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I am so sorry my friend, nightmares really suck. Do you have any plans today? Honestly no😔 I am having trouble with the child alters since my birthday and anxiety is high as soon as my eyes are open. @Emelia8

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Thanks @Lee82 🌷

Feeling very tired, emotionally and physically wrecked, jittery and hypervigilant. No doubt sounds familiar to you both @Lee82 @Former-Member .Will try again to sleep soon.

Emelia 🌸

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Sounds very familiar honey. I hope you are able to get some more sleep. @Emelia8

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I am sorry my love I didn't get this notification. Having trouble with child alters since my birthday so not so great. @Lee82

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Oh honey I am so sorry. Anything you want to talk about? What are they feeling?

@Former-Member

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@Former-Member Good morning hunny!:D yes I slept 10 hours! can you believe it :D:D:D:D. I hope you have a super pea wednesday full of kindness and caring. Lots of love peaxxx

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Really Mel, you want to talk about my spoiled little brats when you need the support more! Yep I read your other post and if you would rather not say anymore than that's ok too.

I am sorry I am a little emotional because of the brats. They are clinging to hubby for dear life constantly looking for the meanies, they are freaking out to almost panic when bio mum calls. Anything, it can be the littlest thing like hubby put the tomato sauce on the wrong way and it's Instant meltdown. 😒

I love you and I wish you saw what I see in you. @Lee82

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Hope I didn't upset you Mel with my last message 😟 I am going to attach what I use to sleep with and who know maybe it might help you. I put it on quietly and stick my phone under my pillow and it helps me get to sleep. @Lee82

https://youtu.be/o-9T184mpY4

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No honey you didn't upset me. I am just not doing so well right now. I have no words.
poor little ones hun. It must be so difficult trying to comfort them when they are in a state.
Thank you for the YouTube video. It is very beautiful and I am listening to it right now.
@Former-Member

love you to the moon and back babe. Wish I was there with you

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