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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I can't she in a strangers car right now hun. I don't want ti go back into hospital. I just need to make it hine. need my head to stoo spinning and my eye sight do come back orooerly. Then I'll be ok. Mum doesn't know about the neighbour I don't know what I am gojnf to sAy.
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Unfortunately @Anastasia, all we can do is be here and support @Lee82 and hope it doesn't go into a full blown panic attack. I am very much hoping that you are feeling a little calmer my love

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I an beathing hun. I am just frizen I can't move I am scared @Anastasia

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Will music help hun? @Lee82

We are here holding your hand still. I'm sorry this is happening

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I don't think you would be able to get in a strangers car right now but I was out of ideas to help you babe. I understand completely about not wanting to go back to hospital as well. Tell mum the truth sweetie I know she is not easy but you need to be able to express how your feeling. Wishing I was with you. @Lee82

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@Lee82

I am so sorry you are going through all this right now. Sadly, I am not able to be much help to you right now, as I have been going through something similar myself this past week. 💓

But please know I feel very much for you, and am with you in spirit.

I am very thankful you have the lovely @Former-Member @Anastasia @NatureLover here for you, to help talk you through

Wish I could do more, but I am just not in a good headspace right now. I just ask that you please keep yourself safe. You are very important and much loved by so many of us.

Emelia 🌸

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Love to you @Emelia8

Thank you for messaging @Lee82 ♥️

So many of us love you @Lee82

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I am home @Former-Member @Anastasia

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That is good news @Lee82 thank you for letting us know. Still here if you need me, otherwise please know you are special and loved, stay safe beautiful ♥️

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Bless your little cotton socks....... never been so stressed out my love. Thank goodness your home are you staying at mums. Keep talking my gorgeous friend so we can keep that thing away from you. @Lee82

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