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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Lee82 - hope it all goes well hun x

I'll be on and off today.

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@Lee82 hope it goes well for you today. Will be thinking of you. Take some time if you can to just be outside and take some deep breathes (hopefully the air and weather is good 🙂 ). Hopefully that will help calm you a bit. Remember you are not alone, there are people here to stand with you and support you.

Will be around if you need to chat.

Hugs to you.

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@Lee82 wrote:

Thanks @DJMasters . I was finally able to get a hold of my psychologist and so I have an appointment with her today at 1.


That's great news, well done. Good luck with your anxiety and the appointment, @Lee82 ...

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I am safe but not good. I won't be around most of the day. Please don't worry as hubby is always in the same room as me.
@NatureLover @Lee82 @Emelia8 @DJMasters @Fluttershy1

thinking of you @Zoe7

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Sending you a gentle hug and some strength hun to get through the day. I will be here until about 12 if you need to chat.
I love you always and forever beautiful

@Former-Member

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@Former-Member wrote:

I am safe but not good. I won't be around most of the day. Please don't worry as hubby is always in the same room as me.


Thanks for letting us know, @Former-Member . I hope you can find a little peace and hope amongst the pain...

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@Former-Member 😇💞🐶

Emelia 🌸

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@Former-Member @Emelia8 @NatureLover @Lee82 - not a good appointment very triggered, she made me feel bad about myself so now I'm hiding....

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Sorry to hear that @Fluttershy1 🌹😔

Hide for a time if you need to, but I want you to know that it is safe to come out again, when you're ready.

What do you have planned for the rest of the day? Do you have some more colouring in or art projects to do? I loved your koala picture that you posted last night, perhaps another one might be good. Would like to see you keeping busy in some pleasurable way. It will help you come through the triggering from your appointment. I tried to do that myself yesterday after my psych appointment.

Emelia 🌸

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@Emelia8 - I have nothing to do... I might do more colouring maybe? I no sure?

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