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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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That's great to hear babe. @Zoe7 And also I am so glad that you will get to say a proper goodbye to your friends. As @Former-Member yes it won't be for a while but at least you know that you will be able to get proper closure.

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Hey @Fluttershy1 nice to see you here. How you doing?

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You do sound better than you did last night though @Lee82 - more in control of what is happening even though it sucks dealing with anxiety

@Former-Member Yes it is a 'good' thing. There are so many of his friends and family here and for us all to be able to say our goodbyes will be helpful. His immediate family are allowed to travel but his daughter isn't so that will be good for her too.

Hi @Fluttershy1

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@Lee82 - nice to see you here too!
things aren't going so well at the moment my MH is playing up.
None of my family understand it.
Hiding in bed watching spongebob squarepants

hoping not to switch alters...

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Couples counseling for my husband and my daughter 🤔 😂 She has access to Nat and Nat even reduced her fee because d2 couldn't afford to see her otherwise, but she won't.

Poor kid, it's hard to watch but still he doesn't need to be pulling that :pile_of_poo: with you. My guys use to come home from their fathers with bad attitudes sometimes, I would look at them and tell them to go back into the driveway and leave their bs there before they came back into the house. It work 9 times out of 10. I always told them not to their issues they where having with me to their dads and expected the same when they came home.

I am so sorry the chat line thing didn't go well my love and you won't be sleeping 🙁 @Lee82

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@Zoe7 - hi how are you?

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I am so sorry to hear that you are so scared sweetheart. Hiding seems like a nice safe idea and eldest daughter use to love spongebob it was always on our tv. @Fluttershy1

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@Former-Member @Zoe7 @Lee82 - do you guys mind if I hang here with you all?

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I have been better @Fluttershy1 but doing everything I can to work through it. Saw my pdoc today and GP tomorrow. I have to call my psych in the morning also. I am hoping to be back at work on Monday if I can sort out my sleep and where my head is at a little more.

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@Former-Member - I'm all curled up with weighted blanket, watching spongebob squarepants and chatting with you guys xx

love you x

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