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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I fell asleep around 8 so I have had my three hours sleep, I fell asleep before hubby could give me my sp!!! @Lee82

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And now it's too late to take them?
@Former-Member

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It sure is, I have an 8 am appointment with psychologist in the morning so I would miss that if I took them now. Hmmm maybe I should take them now. 😂😂

How are you? @Lee82

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Maybe if I count all the little bits I will fall asleep. 😂 @Lee82

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Lol...mmm maybe not.

geez 8am is really early. Do you go and see her or is it a phone session?
@Former-Member

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Phone session or should I saw computer session via videos link. Personally I think she is milking workcover as it's every week and it's always 8am as she is fully booked for the next few months and she opened that time slot for me.

Pssssst......... I know you are not ok 💝💝💝💝 Just know that I know and I am supporting you the best I can and loving you unconditionally forever.

@Lee82

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Oh ok....mmm sounds a little that way to me too 🤔 however possibly she could have opened up that time cause you are worth it and deserve her time. 😉

thank you hun. You are so beautiful and that is one of the reasons why I love you. ❤️
@Former-Member

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Well I guess she could have. 🧐 I forgot that I am meeting a new one later tomorrow afternoon too. Yuck two psychologist in one day 🥺

You need glasses by the way 🤣😂 @Lee82

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2 in 1 day 😱 that is rough!
big day for you hun. You really need to get some sleep.
I already wear glasses 🤓 but why do you think I need them? 🤪

@Former-Member

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Me beautiful mmmmh nope. 😂🤣 I am going to go on my vibe lounge soon as my track for that usually puts me to sleep. Just doing the dishes be D2 is being a bit*ch again and hasn't done them.

You know you need sleep too beautiful 💖 @Lee82

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