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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I left work early the other day when my kids were at a specialist lesson but apart from that not having any time off - better for me to be keeping busy @Lee82 Can't go to the funeral as it is in Queensland and with restrictions can't leave the state.

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It will take a while for it to really sink in hun especially if it was sudden. Sending you some strength to get through this difficult time.

im still here and that's all I can do right now.
@Zoe7

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I guess your right about the distraction I just hope you are also looking after you as well. Oh no I am so sorry. That really sucks that you can't go right now.
@Zoe7

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Trying to @Lee82 Been pretty much in a fog all week and haven't been able to do anything but I have a great bunch at work around me and they have been really supportive. Toby and Cat have had extra cuddles (whether they wanted them or not lol). Finding it hard to sleep though - too much thinking.

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'Still here' is a good thing @Lee82 As hard as it is Hon every day is a new day and we just need to take it as it comes to be able to get through

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Anything you want to talk about hun? I am here to listen

@Zoe7

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Thanks for the offer @Lee82 but really just processing things and of course it is harder at night - especially trying to switch off to sleep. Not much I can do about it presently so just trying my best to get through. I have a pdoc appointment this week - which has come at a very good time - so will discuss things, including meds, with her. ...think I need some extra help to switch off and sleep at the moment.

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Going to try to get some rest/sleep @Lee82 Thank you for being here with me tonight. I hope you can get some sleep too Hon and tomorrow is a better day for you. Hugs and hugs

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@Former-Member love your work :). I particularly like the second one this time. You are so talentedxxx

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@Lee82 wrote:

@NatureLover hope you have been ok my friend. Been thinking of you lately. 💗


Thanks, @Lee82 , I appreciate it I'm OK. I'm sorry yesterday was such a shocker for you...am hoping today is better for you.

@Former-Member I like your paintings! Did you get in trouble for painting in the lounge-room? 😄

@Zoe7 I am really sorry to hear about the loss of your friend. Thinking of you as you grieve, and sending condolences...

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