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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Hey hun. Yep I did figure it out after I posted that message to you...🤭

sorry about that...lol the name threw me...anyway welcome back hun it's so nice to have you around again. 💕

I hope you a feeling well and that you are having a nice weekend.

@Emelia8

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Hey Zoe...I hope this message finds you asleep with Tobes and Cat after you did some housework at 2 in the morning hun.
so glad you were able to get a few things for yourself done this weekend. it makes us feel better when we can tick off a job from the list that's been there for a while. 💕 hope you enjoy what's left of your Sunday babe before school tomorrow

@Zoe7

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So your night was that bad huh? Thank you for trying to focus on my wellbeing but just so you know when you don't answer or tell me about your night, I naturally know that it was a bad one. I love you so very much. 💖💖💖

unfortunately my paint room is getting further and further away as he spends more time looking after me and the littles one then working on my room. But it will be perfect when it's done. For now I don't really have the energy for it so I happy chatting to my fourm family, watching others do it on YouTube and reading my new book. I am not sure what style of pour I am going to do for my first commission. She wants the same colours used on a heart that Kimmy made her so that would be turquoise, green turquoise, magenta and gold and it's to hang in the foyer of her clinic so it's going to be a big one. I am really looking forward to do it all be it a little scared.

Good morning to the rest of my fourm family @NatureLover @Zoe7 @Emelia8 @Bunniekins @outlander @Lostandalone @Shaz51 @Maggie @Eve7

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Hi @Former-Member and @Lee82 , thinking of you both and sending hugs...

Nikki, I'm glad your chest pains are just a chest infection, although that's not good either...hoping it gets better quickly.

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Thank you very much 💖🍀 @NatureLover 🍀💖

Do you have much planned for today and how are you going my friend

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@Former-Member wrote:

Hey my beautiful friend, it was easier before December we had it worked out but I guess that is just how it goes. How are you doing, I feel bad that I rarely ask you how you are getting on 😞 bad friend😞 sending you very gentle but very loving hugs @NatureLover


Thank you for this kind post Nikki, I had a very difficult day yesterday and am only just catching up now. Please don't ever feel bad, you're never a bad friend, not in the slightest! You're battling huge things, day and night. And I think you are amazing. @Former-Member

P.S. I notice you've given me a four-leaf clover instead of a bright green cactus in your special emojis for me!

I'm doing OK in general, things are a bit difficult right now, just planning a walk for today and getting through, but I am very grateful for my forum friends, you are all so beautiful.

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Hey honey. How you doing? What you up to today?
@Former-Member

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Hope your Sunday is a good one @NatureLover

sending you a hug 💗

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Thank you for your kind hug, much appreciated, @Lee82 ❤

How is today looking for you? I hope not too difficult...

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I have injured my neck and I am in a bit of pain so I am just laying down. Nothing planned for today. Just wait around for the boys to get home.
@NatureLover

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