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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Hey pea. How you doing hun? Can't sleep either?
@Bunniekins

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Hey beautiful. You awake?

@Former-Member

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Good morning Mel, are we playing sleep tag?😂

I actually had a full nights sleep didn't wake once. I really hope you have fallen back to sleep by now.
💝🌸@Lee82 🌸💝

Good morning Apple, I am so sorry your son set you up for an argument that's not fair at all. That use to happen to me all the time with exh1 and it worries me that maybe my son will turn out more like his father (my son is 20) It is hard to say I am glad that you have a delay tactic with you SI, but I am happy I guess. I hope it takes you a very very very very long time to finish your house 🏠 I enjoy talking to you and would miss you if you weren't here. Hopefully your son will see the "light" before he creates a drama he can't undo. I am sorry it's taken me so long to reply. Hoping you are ok my friend. 💜Nikki.💖🍎 @Appleblossom 🍎💖

Good morning fourm family

💖🦖 @outlander 🦖💖

💖🌵 @NatureLover 🌵💖

💖👸 @Bunniekins 👸💖

💖👩🏼‍🏫 @Zoe7 👩🏼‍🏫💖

💖🦋 @Eve7 🦋💖

💖🐥 @Maggie 🐥💖

💖💐 @Shaz51 💐💖

💖🚘 @Sans911 🚘💖

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@Former-Member"Yay!" have been worried about you my friend. Sending you caring thoughs and love your way today. May your day be sunny and bright. Love pea

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You are too sweet my pea. I am struggling a lot right now but ok. I find it hard to focus and that is why I am not around much at the moment. You are never far from my heart sweetness.
💖👸 @Bunniekins 👸💖

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Hey Nikki. Yes it seems like we are playing sleep tag. I am so so so happy for you hun. A full night of sleep is fantastic. hopefully you can keep the momentum going.
@Former-Member

You going to your sisters today for her birthday?
I would love to see a pic of the cake you made her.

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@Former-Member @Lee82 @Bunniekins

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Hey hun just popping in to let you know that I am thinking of you and that I hope you are ok.
love you always and forever.

@Former-Member ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

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OMG. I HAVE GOT SOME AMAZING NEWS!!!!

I have received my first commission request for my acrylic paint pouring 😁😁😁😁😁👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏

As you may have guessed I am super excited right now. Had a crappy afternoon/evening yesterday it ended with hubby having to wrap my sisters birthday present and me throwing her birthday cake in the bin. Today started out good as I had a full night sleep and done a 20 minute session on my vibration table. Got to my sister's and my nephew and his bride to be where there with my newest nephew Kyson who is only five days old. So I filled my "cup" right to overflowing with baby cuddles. That did leave me drained but I napped in the car as we headed to a craft shop we have been trying to get to for months. I had a phone session with my counsellor before we arrived and that my friends is my first paying customer and it's not a small piece either. Walking in cloud nine right now can't wait to get in and plan her piece and get my paint room back up and running. Doing everything I can to hold on to this feeling as it's been a good 7/8 months since I've felt anything like this. This is where I profess my love and appreciation for you guys and tell you how greatful I am to have you in my life. Apart from Sean you guys, my family are the first to hear my news because I know you will understand why this is so important to me. Thank you love you all

@Lee82 @outlander @Bunniekins @NatureLover @Appleblossom @Angels333 @Zoe7 @Sans911 @Maggie @Shaz51 and anyone else I missed.

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Omg!!! I am sooooooooooo happy for you hun. I can't stop smiling. That is fantastic news.
so so excited for you 🤗😄😃🤗

And that is so great you had a nice time at your sisters too. Would have been amazing to have cuddles with your newest nephew. How gorgeous. Nothing beats holding a baby in your arms. So innocent and precious.
I am so happy for you babe...you deserve to be happy and excited. You have something you can look forward to each day now and something to work towards. Can't wait to see your creation.

sending you all my love and hugs. ❤️💙💜💛💚

@Former-Member 😘😘

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