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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Hey @Lee82 It is so hard when the days are rough Hon I have slept most of the afternoon catching up on some much needed sleep/rest.

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Glad to hear that you were able to rest @Zoe7.

I had a a bit of a sleep this afternoon too. Still feeling pretty worn out though.

It's my brothers birthday tomorrow and I can't go and visit him as he is in the lockdown area...poor thing has to spend it on his own. 😔 we are just going to house party him in the afternoon.

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That is sad for your brother @Lee82 but making the most of what you have to connect with him is important. I am pleased to hear you had some rest today too - make the most of the (semi) solitude before the kids come back.

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Hello

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Definitely doing that @Zoe7

how is your night going?

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Good morning my wonderful fourm family, missing you so much.

@Lee82 , love you always my beautiful Mel

@Bunniekins , hope your Sunday is super pea awesome

@Zoe7, I really hope your Sunday is a restful one for you my friend

@outlander , I am hoping that the injury has settled for you and that you are having a peaceful sleep right now little one.
@Sans911 , sending you a little light hoping you are going to have a peaceful day.
@Snowie , wishing you a quiet Sunday with your family sweetie

@Naturelover, I have tried so many times to tag you and it won't work. I am hoping it's just a glitch and that you are ok.

@Eve7 , sending you a little love and a little light to help you through your Sunday.

@Pollyotter , @Angels333 , @Fluttershy1, @Shaz51 , @mudsum , @SpiderLady , sending you all gentle hugs and hopes for a good day for you all.

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@Former-MemberHey DizzyIzzy been missing you. Hope you are okayish. Going to spend time with kidults today. Not much news here. Gentle rain outside which is really nice. Hope you have a kind and caring day ahead with lots of love coming your way. Your friend always peaxxx

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Hey pea, I'm missing you too. Hope you have a good day with your kidults. We have gentle rain too, right now the hubby is seeing how long he can last standing out in that gentle rain. 🤦🏻‍♀️ I am in my paint room getting ready to spend the morning with my sister-in-law and her kids. I am not sure how it's going to go because both are on the spectrum and I haven't peopled all week because of my mood. @Bunniekins

Kinda wish you where awake my love. Mind you if your actually sleeping then that is fantastic. Missing you @Lee82

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I'm awake hun. How you feeling?

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Good morning gorgeous, I am feeling ok today. First day in about 4 I have woken up not

wanting to leave this world, so that's a good thing I guess. How are you holding up at mum's?
💝🌸 @Lee82 🌸💝

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