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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Thanks for your good wishes...how are you doing tonight, @Lee82 ?

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Poor choice made in an emotional state, but yes I am ok @Lee82 I would say at this point I am in crisis and not sure I am safe to be here. I pro

ose to check in when I can. Love you 3000

@NatureLover , will miss chatting with you too but it will only be a couple of days hopefully

@Zoe7, your welcome my friend. Hope tomorrow your energiser bunny's battery runs low

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Not feeling the best tonight @NatureLover

My love I am so very sorry to hear that 😔

I will be here when you get back waiting for you.
you will be forever in my thoughts and In My heart.
@Former-Member

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@Former-Member hope to see you when you can get back here...sending a gentle hug

@Lee82 are you still in a lot of physical pain? Or both physical and emotional?

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Both physically and emotional. My head feels like it's going to split in half. It's been a big day. Pretty full on session With my psychologist. I feel beaten

@NatureLover I am hiding under my blacket right now . Don't want to face the world 😔

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@Lee82 wrote:

Both physically and emotional. My head feels like it's going to split in half. It's been a big day. Pretty full on session With my psychologist. I feel beaten

@NatureLover I am hiding under my blacket right now . Don't want to face the world 😔


Really sorry to hear all this, @Lee82 😞 I'm sorry you feel beaten, I think hiding under your blanket is a good thing for when you feel beaten (and yes, I'm aware you have your two kids as well, which would make it harder to hide).

I'm afraid it's my time to log off for the night...it crept up on me suddenly. I'm trying to get back into a healthy habit. But I really hope your physical and emotional pains ease and that you can get some good sleep tonight. Thinking of you @Lee82 and sending hugs...hope you wake up feeling stronger and able to face the world tomorrow.

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Very much hope you are safe and getting some help tonight @Former-Member Sending you strength and courage to get through tonight and hopefully a better tomorrow

@Lee82 Hugs and hugs and hugs Hon

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@Former-Member hope you're getting the support you need tonight. Sending strength and hope your way

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More gentle hugs and thoughts coming from here @Former-Member @Lee82 .... 💜🌷

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@Lee82 @Former-Member 💙❤
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