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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Good Morning @Former-Member

Sending loving thoughts to you today my friend ❤️🌻❤️

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@Former-Member

love you beautiful ❤️

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@Lee82 , not a great night and far from a great day here. I hope yours has been bearable. Love you Mel 💜Nikki

@Eve7 , thank you beautiful. Hope your day as been gentle for you.

@Bunniekins , sending you heaps of hugs honey

@outlander , I hope you are ok little one.

@NatureLover , I hope you are holding up alright my friend.

@Zoe7 , thinking of you always lovely

@MDT , hello friend

@Shaz51 , sending you some hugs my dear friend

@Maggie , I truly hope you have had moments of peace in your day my friend

@Fluttershy1 , hello sweetheart

@Sans911 , hello friend I hope your day was gentle and that you are ok. Please let me know if you would like me to stop tagging you so much.

@SpiderLady , hope you are well lovely

@mudsum , haven't spoken in a while, I hope you are ok my friend.

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I am so sorry hun you are struggling so much. Sending you a gentle hug. Had to do a bit of work with mum today. Fell down a really high step and hit my head and knock myself out for a bit. My shoulder and knee are killing me and I have a massive headache. Panic attacks filled the rest of the day and have been very teary and sensitive.
love you Nikki always and forever! 💙

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Wow, you are definitely not having a good day my love. So sorry it has been that way for you today. Sending you extremely gentle hugs and all my love. @Lee82

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I am just so tired of it all babe. I feel like s**t everyday. No motivation no energy. I just want to run away. Everyone will be better without me here.
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thank you for the tag @Former-Member

here for you my friend xx

ohhh @Lee82 , sending you tender hugs xx

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Thanks @Shaz51 how has your day been?

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