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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Hey @outlander I'm so sorry to hear about the struggles you are having with your pop. I can't imagine it is easy but know that you are doing a great job and he is very lucky to have you there to help and support him.
I agree with @Former-Member it should be GP's job to tell your pop he shouldnt drive. Family members always find it hard to take advice from us because they think we over exaggerate.

just remember you are doing a great job and not many people especially your age would have taken on that type of responsibility ❤️

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I'm not sure if staying up all night is the best thing but I get it. I completely get feeling afraid to fall asleep. I am happy to sit with you for as a long as it takes my beautiful friend. I don't think I will be falling asleep anytime soon.
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I have just the lost ten minutes or so!!! This is what scares me. I don't think I've left the couch and I can't get out but still. @Lee82 Thanks gorgeous but make sure you go to bed when your ready.

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What do you mean babe? You can't remember the last 10 minutes? @Former-Member

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Yeah, it's blank. The only reason I know is because of the movie I am watching. @Lee82

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Oh babe. Is there anything you can do to prevent it from happening? To help you stay present and here with me?
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Just popping in to say goodnight @Lee82 @Former-Member 😴

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Sorry I can't, but please rest my sweet. I am safe enough tonight.

Love you 3000 @Lee82

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Seeet Dreams @outlander hope you have a restful sleep.

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Good night my friend, I hope you sleep sweet @outlander

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