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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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hello and hugs @Lee82 , @Former-Member , @NatureLover

any cooking @Former-Member xx

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Doing OK thanks, @Lee82 . Sorry your anxiety's been so bad 😥

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Thanks @NatureLover it's made me feeling very nauseous. My jaw is so sore from clenching so tightly and I am shaking like a leaf. @NatureLover I am just so bloody tired and fed up of feeling like this. 😔

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what have you been up to today @Shaz51 ? How is mrShaz?

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day off today @Lee82

have you got furbabies xx

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@Lee82 wrote:

Thanks @NatureLover it's made me feeling very nauseous. My jaw is so sore from clenching so tightly and I am shaking like a leaf. @NatureLover I am just so bloody tired and fed up of feeling like this. 😔


Sorry to hear, @Lee82 ... I bet you are totally fed up 😥 Have you been able to eat today?

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I have just read some of Miss Nikki's older posts and it turns out you do know about me. I would be the unconnected 16 year old. She doesn't seem to like me much. I think I will leave for the night. Sorry I don't bake or even cook for that matter, I live on rum and mars bars, but not here apparently not allowed to drink. This place is to stressful not to drink. Good night everyone

@Lee82 @NatureLover @Shaz51

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Not really. I had a couple crackers about 2ish and that's about it. @NatureLover

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Kim you really don't have to leave. I am happy to keep talking with you and would like to keep chatting but if you feel it's best you call it a night that is ok. I just have one question if you could please answer it for me. Is Sean there with you tonight?

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@Lee82 I understand from experience how bad anxiety makes it hard to eat, but I was wondering if you could try to get something small down...do you have any grapes? They're easy to snack on almost without realising you're doing it, and they're nutritious... Or do your kids have a fruit cup you could slurp?

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