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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Yes Hon - going okay - I seemed to have passed through the worst of it for now and doing a lot better than I was. Now I just need to be able to sleep - that is a whole new other beast to deal with before I crash again ...and without sleep I know I will @Lee82 One more week until the holidays for me and then hopefully I can get back on track a bit more again.

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@Lee82 wrote:

Thank you so much @NatureLover and @Zoe7 for your on going support. It doesn't go unnoticed and it is much appreciated. It warms my heart that I am in your thoughts. I hope you both are doing ok.


I'm glad your heart is warmed, @Lee82 🙂 That makes me happy to hear.

Yes, am doing OK thanks.

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❤️🦋 @Former-Member 🦋❤️

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Missing you @Lee82

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Good morning beautiful. How are you doing today?
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One day I am going to surprise you and sat great. 😂Kimmy and little one are still not good, had a different medication last night and it gave me the worst nightmares. Things that are safe where turned into not safe. Even listening to our playlist😞 Izzy is still 'gone' and I am exhausted but ok. How are you doing gorgeous? @Lee82

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Oh I'm so d sad Kerry to hear that Nikki. You have been doing a great job looking after everyone. I can imagine how tired you are hun. You are a very strong and determined person babe. I wish I could give you all a great big hug and tell you everything will be ok. Wish I was sitting with you enjoying a cup of coffee.
I am not doing so great either. I s as m at mums at the moment. I had to sleep here last night as the boys are with Jules and I have to spend today and tomorrow with her too. Not looking forward to that. Just not coping very well at the moment. Meds have made me very spaced out and paranoid.
love you 3000 @Former-Member

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@Former-Member wrote:

Kimmy and little one are still not good, had a different medication last night and it gave me the worst nightmares. Things that are safe where turned into not safe. Even listening to our playlist😞 Izzy is still 'gone' and I am exhausted but ok.


Sorry to read this 😞 You are doing an amazing job, Nikki. Is this maybe the toughest time in your life, as protector? (I think I read something that you said, to that effect...) Really hope Kimmy and the little alter feel better soon. @Former-Member

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Oh no, @Lee82 ...I had no idea that meds could cause paranoia! 😞

Really hoping for strength to get through for you, as well as hope for your future and peace.

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I am so sorry Mel, I didn't get this notification 😞 I am almost home so I will reply probably soon. Love you 3000 @Lee82

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