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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I've been OK thanks, just trying to keep the anxiety under control. It's been OK today so far. @Lee82

Is your cold all better now?

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That's good to hear @NatureLover

yea cold is all gone. Was just sick for a couple days.

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@Lee82 wrote:

yea cold is all gone. Was just sick for a couple days.


That's good, @Lee82 🙂

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Honey I am a bit worried about you. Are you able to just quickly check in for me babe. I need to know you are ok.
@Former-Member

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@Lee82 @Former-Member Thinking of you both 💖💖💖

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I hate my f**king life. I am a piece of sh** that can do no good. I am a terrible mother. I am a terrible daughter and I am a terrible sister. I am just a waste of space. What is the f**king point anymore.
I just want to be left alone to rotte. Why can't I ever find any peace.

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@Zoe7 Thank you. How have you been going?

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Up and down @Lee82 but have so much to do over the next couple of weeks - just have to do a little at a time and find a way through it all.

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@Lee82 wrote:

I hate my f**king life. I am a piece of sh** that can do no good. I am a terrible mother. I am a terrible daughter and I am a terrible sister. I am just a waste of space. What is the f**king point anymore.
I just want to be left alone to rotte. Why can't I ever find any peace.


Worried about you, @Lee82 ...worried at you thinking this. You certainly do a lot of good on these forums. I am in awe sometimes of how you support others and the words you say.

Sending you a gentle hug, and wishing for peace and hope for you... ❤

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hugs and love @Lee82 💚💚💚
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