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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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That's ok babe. What do you mean anymore has something happened? Pretty sh** day mentally. I am under a blanket right now. Just don't want to deal with the world.
@Former-Member

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Any thing you want to talk about @Lee82

Love you 3000

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Did you do anything today honey? @Former-Member

love you to infinity and beyond

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Dodging my question I see 😃 my day I guess has been eventful 😞 @Lee82

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Talk to me babe. 💕

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I am not sure how much I can tell you my love, because I don't know what happened last night/early this morning. @Lee82

What I do know is I woke in the emergency department this morning with exh2 and Nat at the end of the bed. Apparently I had my phone open on Nat's number so the person who found me called her. I am pretty messed physically. Now the house keys have been moved, wallet and car keys as well. All doors are locked but the one out to where I smoke but can't go any further than
@Zoe7 , Hope you don't mind me tagging you here, I just didn't want to bring down the vibe on the other thread.

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No problems at all @Former-Member I am still waiting for your image to clear there but am more than happy to stay here with you and @Lee82 for a while. It sounds like a really scary night/morning for you Hon but I am glad you are safe and being looked after

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Oh babe! I am so sorry to hear that. I am sending you a very big gentle hug right now...❤️ @Former-Member

I am glad that you are still here with us. I couldn't bare not being able to talk to you anymore sweets. Have you spoken to you MH team at all today? Has anyone explained to you what happened? I think you have a right to know.
I know what is happening right now may seem over the top and harsh but it is put into place to keep you safe honey. Your family love you so much and care about you they want you around. They want you there for them honey. You have to be strong and fight. If not for yourself for your family, for me. Please fight it babe. I still want to catch up with you one day and have that walk on the beach.
love you so much...💗

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@Lee82 @Zoe7 , I don't know what happened before I was found. I have no memory after saying goodnight to you guys here. Exh2 was already asleep doing his best impression of a freight train when I crawled into bed beside him and then I woke in hospital. I am only assuming,

but I think the memory I had two days ago may have cause another "fracture" which means which means the is another "alter" one that I can't hear, I am not aware of what "they" do. it makes life a little harder because I am unsure of what happens when they are "out".

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Wow @Former-Member that really is hard Hon - makes everything so much more unpredictable. I can only imagine how scary that is

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